Recent content by DreamerGuy

I am not into this diet thing. I want to get big NOW for this season. It feels like every spring/summer my goals fail because I always do something wrong. Since 2012 is being the same. I am not taking it anymore... I will take steroids.

It's the same I've read before. I will take steroids regardless of what I'm reading here.

They don't motivate me at all, they actually depress me, and I can't help it. To see them is too see how I would look like at this time if it wasn't for my atrocious bulking seasons. I feel so bad right now. I really need steroids. I just want steroids for aesthetic reasons.

Anyway, I've been so depressed lately. Especially when I go to the gym and I see these big ass dudes with nice muscles. It's really depressing. I feel like I wasted all this time I was into fitness for nothing. More than 3 years working out and looking so out of shape. I mean, I'm not really...

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Anyway, the problem is that I don't want to become "fatter" while in steroids because from my experience I tend to gain too much while bulking to the point to stop doing it. My three bulking season were atrocious. I ended up fat in my first one and second one, and I only bulked for no more than...

So I decided to begin my first cycle ever but I have two problems: 1) I'm about a body fat percentage of 18% 2) I'm afraid to gain more fat during my cycle since it seems I'm very sensible to carbs. And please don't tell about lowering my bf because it's been really hard and I'm over it...