My bloodwork and replacement use

[Akumaky]

Many years ago I started losing weight and did not want to eat. I was 6'0" and 117 pounds. Yes, I'm a guy. My blood work returned and my doctor said my potassium and other levels were cause for concern. She stated, eat, or have a heart attack, you choose.

To go back further, a friend slipped me drugs. I had a bad bad trip because I never did drugs other than weed or alcohol. And to be honest, I only did weed in high school because of peer pressure. I hated ever single high it ever gave me.

After being slipped hardcore dope and having a bad trip which resulted in paramedics at my house, I was mental for a while. I thought everyone was out to drug me. I didn't touch food out of fear someone laced it.

This all stopped the day my doctor injected me with nandrolone deconate. At only 75mg I started starving so bad I had to eat. I felt less anxious and worried. I ate. I went to the gym. I grew. Man did I grow. I was over 140 in a blink.

Lets fast forward 2 years. I'm now self dosing. I'm on dbol, deca, deca, and more deca. I rarely used testosterone other than the 3cc vials from Mexico that also contain dhea. I believe it's the only steroid ever to contain dht. It's called 'Sten.' it's cypionate, propionate, and dhea. It's like 120mg or so in 3cc, so I had to inject massive amounts of oil. I was a full blown user. I upped my dosage until I was around 600mg a week (combined depending what was on hand) and my cycle was 2 years.

I went from a normal (very skinny) 135lb man, to a mental case down to 117lb, and then juiced to almost 200 and have very, very low body fat. I spent 3 hours in the gym almost everyday. And any day out of the gym was a day I hated.

I took my last shot in 2001. I got married 1 week after my last shot.

I had blood work done here and there throughout my use. My cholesterol hit 210 but my good cholesterol also went high, so that was good.

I started getting the pimples on my back and chest that filled with blood and would explode, I mean nasty pussy bloody make a mess on the mirror explode. My nipples started itching like crazy and they appeared a little swollen.

But I stopped. Cold turkey. No post cycle. I never ever took any anti aromatiser, or chlomid, or any of that. I did get 'deca-dick' once, and sten fixed that quick. The dhea in sten create a major, major erection and when you 'released' it would shoot like a squirt gun. Sten did this every time, but only for a few days, then it was normal. No ther anabolic that I used ever did to me sexually what Sten did. My friends had very similar effects as well.

Now to today. I have been 100% anabolic free from 2001 to 2013. 11+ years.

I had my levels tested, I'm at:

694 (250-1100)
83.3 (35-155)

But here is the catch, my sex drive is healthy some days, and not others. I'm never rock solid like I used to be. I just don't get 'stiff' like I used to. I'm at what I'd say is 80% stiff and length.

I'm 40 years old.

I had an ultrasound on my testicles. My veins have and issue. Viricose? Or something. It can prevent pregnancy as it warms the scrotum above normal levels and can kill sperm. It can also be uncomfortable etc.

Is this all in my head?

Would Viagra be the solution? I'm very, very tempted to run test cyp at 200/week and get back into shape and rock the proper tool for the job. Rocking a semi is lame.

Typed this on a phone, hope auto correct didn't auto correct my post too bad

 

[300winmag]

It seems you have made some poor decisions in the past that have affected your health or still are. With that aside you need to stop guessing and medicating. Go to the doctor get your test done and do as perscribed. It seems you may have to see shrink as maybe there is an issue there. Not To be dick here, but seems you have more problems then just low T. No Viagra wouldnt help.

 

[Akumaky]

It seems you have made some poor decisions in the past that have affected your health or still are. With that aside you need to stop guessing and medicating. Go to the doctor get your test done and do as perscribed. It seems you have to see shrink as maybed there is an issue there. To be dick here, but seems you have more problems then just low T. No Viagra wouldnt help.

I'm sorry if my post was hard to follow. You say 'still are.' I haven't used in over 11 years. Im not sure what you mean. Can you elaborate?

Also, I did see the doctor, I stated I had an ultrasound and posted my bloodwork. You say I may have more issues than low T, I was told based on bloodwork I'm not even close to low T. Do you think the bloodwork results I posted above show low T? I'm confused.

Other issues? You mean, the reason I was not eating etc? No man, that hasn't been an issues in well over the 11+ years clean, and the 2 years of use. So I'd say those thoughts haven't bothered me in about 14 years.

If you have another reason I should see a head doc do tell.

Thanks for your feedback, but I'm not sure what you are trying to get across to me.

Also, can you tell me why you feel Viagra can't help?

 

[300winmag]

sorry just hard to follow. But based off of your numbers I wouldnt do T either. Some other options to get checked would be thyroid, liver and kidney function and maybe get a scan of your pituatary gland. Also are you getting 7-9 hours of sleep a day, are you drinking to much alcohol, is your diet clean or at least good, are you working out? All of things can mess with your T and sex life.

Like I said maybe things in the past have done damage to you I dont know. But also some of it might be your partner(s) maybe they arent doing something or are doing something you want or dont want. Another thing might be expectations, at 40 your not going to be like you were 21.

To me I would look at my life style first and if that is clean maybe a therapist, but with numbers like that I wouldnt be on any more drugs.

 

[Akumaky]

As far as diet, it's pretty clean. I can see my abs all year around for example. I run about 1.5 to 3 miles at the very least 3x a week. I dont lift super heavy, but I lift. Alcohol, yes I drink. I drink anywhere from 1 -3 times a week. I do take a couple shots of jack when drinking, so I have to admit, I probably could hold back on that.

I listed my T results above, but they ran blood for prostate, and many other things as well, it was a pretty big panel, and I was told it all came back great. My blood pressure was in the good range, but higher than in the past of which it was stellar. but that still was totally normal.

I do have the opposite of diabetes, hypoglycemia/hperglycemia. Not sure which, but it's too much insulin basically and I burn body fat like no bodies business. It also makes it hard to gain mass as well, which is a downside. I find that eating small meals every 2.5 -3 hours keeps that in check.

I'm proabably on the wrong board. Looks like my T is decent, so no replacement coming my way. But I am considering a cycle for physical and other reasons stated. I wasnt 100% my test was good, but after googling, im not in bad shape.

I might do a 200mg over 12 weeks with a few week peek at 400, just for the looks over summer. We'll see. Chances are I wont.. too much risk of running it for longer.

thanks for the replies. I guess I just wanted to pst this in the chance that I could have decent T, but it not be enough because of the issues stated above..

thanks again.