Brotha I'm glad you are asking questions and wanting to learn. The advice given was the correct advice. You need to get either torem, clomid immediately.
Here's the problems: the reason you need to train naturally is to strengthen tendons(1). AAS will incease strength and weight faster then tendons can keep up with. Not having a good prior training history you greatly increase your risk for injury. (2) if you are not able to gain/cut with diet and training natural, anything you gain from a cycle will be hard to keep because you change the need for calories and don't know how to manipulate diet/training for your body to maintain the gains. So it's likely you would lose a lot after.
It sounds like you are using AAS as a short cut when its best used to break thru plateaus. It's your choice and I won't knock you for your decision, but I'll give you my opinion.
How you eat, train, sleep will determine the type of gains you will make. You need to do more research because you won't know how to handle sides if/when they occur. You need an aromatase inhibitor in case you have estro sides (gyno, acne,bloat,etc). Aromisin or adex.
Pct clomid 50mg a day for 4 weeks or torem 90,60,60,30 and you can add nolvadex to either at 40,40,20,20.
Aromisin the entire cycle at 12.5mg a day or only if sides appear. Either is fine. 12.5 mg a day during post cycle therapy (pct).
If you aren't happy with your life then make changes. A cycle will not change you that much. You are going to get a lot of negative responses because it sounds like you have an attitude or are defensive. Just keep in mind that this board is for learning and helping others so take it for what it's worth. Do some reading and try to make the best of the cycle but be prepared when you come off because it's easy to lose it all plus some if you don't take this very serious.
