test only is the cycle i reccomend for a 1st cycle so your good there BUT COMMA if you cant eat enough to get bigger than 165 pounds now then a cycle is useless. even if you somehow manage to add a few pounds by eating better while on cycle the minute you go back to eating normal your gains will go away.
i highly reccomend you go to the diet forum here at ology and make a post with all your info and your diet , ask the moderator 3J for his diet advice.