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first off, im turning 22 in june so that will make me 21 years old right now. me and my boy did our first cycle right after our 18th birthday; 10 weeks test prop @ about 500mg a week. i blew up, came off, shrunk back down. then 6 months later i did another cycle and didnt come off 2 and a half years. not only did i love the feeling of being augmented, i loved the thought of it as well. i had an edge over every guy. you guys know the rest
in those 2.5 years i only used test and tren ace, never went over 600mg test a week, never went over 700mg tren a week (which i know is a lot relatively). i loved it omg when i was on 700mg tren a week i was HUGEEEE and i was RIPPED i was a fucking animal everyone knew i was on gear even my parents my dad one time said "how did you get so big? what the fuck did you do?", and my mom is a different story she found gear and syringes in my room a few times but she didnt tell my dad i begged her not to. i explained to her everything told her i knew what i was doing, although it was stupid she trusted me and i love her for that. i also love her for knowing there isnt anything she could have done, but thats irrelevant, so the best thing she could do is to accept it and trust me. anyway......
february 1, 2015. i decide to come off everything after 2.5 years. blasted HCG, then hit clomid hard for 6 weeks i couldn't bare any longer, and continued nolvadex for an addional 2 weeks. then i let nature take its course. a week after stopping nolva i got bloods, test came back 690 or something like that, FSH and LH both came back around 8.5 which is great, but e2 came back 240. so i immediately got some adex. day 1 adex did 1mg, day 2 did 1mg, day 3 0.5, day 4 0.25, day 5 nothing, day 6 (tomorrow) will take 0.25 and continue .25 EOD for 4 more days. i plan on getting bloods done a week from today. i hope my test is normal.
since i have stopped injecting testosterone, i do not feel like myself. i am experiencing mood swings, major mood swings; high highs and low lows. overall i cant say much but i just do not feel like myself i feel as though something is missing.
i know that TRT for life is a great possibility for me at this point but i remain optimistic. however, if i wasnt going to the army in august, i would most probably remain on synthetic test for the rest of my life because i love it. but the reason i dont, if i was to remain on TRT, that would make my military status "undeployable" and there is nothing i want to do more right now than serve my country and to literally put my life on the line, and i would honestly cry myself to tears if i found out i fucked up my HPTA system and couldnt deploy in the army. i would actually call my mother and cry, thats how much this means to me.
now before i get flamed let me tell you this; steroids have treated me amazingly in the past, but overall, i regret doing what i have done. i hope this turns into a sticky because i want all the kids my age who are interested in taking steroids to LEARN FROM ME and from what i am dealing with right now. no 21 year old should have to deal with what i am dealing with right now.
first off, im turning 22 in june so that will make me 21 years old right now. me and my boy did our first cycle right after our 18th birthday; 10 weeks test prop @ about 500mg a week. i blew up, came off, shrunk back down. then 6 months later i did another cycle and didnt come off 2 and a half years. not only did i love the feeling of being augmented, i loved the thought of it as well. i had an edge over every guy. you guys know the rest
in those 2.5 years i only used test and tren ace, never went over 600mg test a week, never went over 700mg tren a week (which i know is a lot relatively). i loved it omg when i was on 700mg tren a week i was HUGEEEE and i was RIPPED i was a fucking animal everyone knew i was on gear even my parents my dad one time said "how did you get so big? what the fuck did you do?", and my mom is a different story she found gear and syringes in my room a few times but she didnt tell my dad i begged her not to. i explained to her everything told her i knew what i was doing, although it was stupid she trusted me and i love her for that. i also love her for knowing there isnt anything she could have done, but thats irrelevant, so the best thing she could do is to accept it and trust me. anyway......
february 1, 2015. i decide to come off everything after 2.5 years. blasted HCG, then hit clomid hard for 6 weeks i couldn't bare any longer, and continued nolvadex for an addional 2 weeks. then i let nature take its course. a week after stopping nolva i got bloods, test came back 690 or something like that, FSH and LH both came back around 8.5 which is great, but e2 came back 240. so i immediately got some adex. day 1 adex did 1mg, day 2 did 1mg, day 3 0.5, day 4 0.25, day 5 nothing, day 6 (tomorrow) will take 0.25 and continue .25 EOD for 4 more days. i plan on getting bloods done a week from today. i hope my test is normal.
since i have stopped injecting testosterone, i do not feel like myself. i am experiencing mood swings, major mood swings; high highs and low lows. overall i cant say much but i just do not feel like myself i feel as though something is missing.
i know that TRT for life is a great possibility for me at this point but i remain optimistic. however, if i wasnt going to the army in august, i would most probably remain on synthetic test for the rest of my life because i love it. but the reason i dont, if i was to remain on TRT, that would make my military status "undeployable" and there is nothing i want to do more right now than serve my country and to literally put my life on the line, and i would honestly cry myself to tears if i found out i fucked up my HPTA system and couldnt deploy in the army. i would actually call my mother and cry, thats how much this means to me.
now before i get flamed let me tell you this; steroids have treated me amazingly in the past, but overall, i regret doing what i have done. i hope this turns into a sticky because i want all the kids my age who are interested in taking steroids to LEARN FROM ME and from what i am dealing with right now. no 21 year old should have to deal with what i am dealing with right now.
