Hi everyone,
As you can tell I'm new here, but this battle has been very long (seems like too long). Pretty much last November everything came to a head for me. 44 yrs old 6ft 180lbs. Life was going great, and married to a wonderful wife (17 yrs) w two kids.
Then bang it hit like a ton of boulders, paranoia, anxiety, fear, lack of confidence etc, massive emotions, and horrible sleep. I have never had ANY issues like this before. I've been very confident, happy, active, etc, etc. After doing some research and alot of reading I decided to see my Dr in January and asked him to test my T levels. He prescribed me cetelopram (anti depressant (which I am not taking any more)) and drew blood. My T level came back at 294, to which the dr said was in "normal" levels. I wasn't happy with that answer so I changed Dr's and finally saw the new Dr in February. He checked my results and told me my levels were indeed low and started me on Androgel 1% at 1 pump per day.
Techniaclly he actually prescribed me 1 pump Axiron daily and when I went to pick it up, the Phamacist said that they did not have the Axiron, so they called the Dr and he changed it to 1 pump of 1% androgel daily. (which in my opinion was the first mis calculation by the Dr) After 5 1/2 weeks and another blood test my levels went to 314 and the Dr increased me to 2 pumps of 1%.
Finally after some persistance a couple of weeks later I got him to let me take three pumps of Androgel. My last Blood test with him was on April 25 and My level went to 369. I told the Dr at the time that I had started using 4 pumps (since I discovered that 4 pumps was the minimum recommended starting dose, I figured I was safe). Although the Dr was slightly upset I went to four and was feeling moderately better, he agreed and then changed my medication from Androgel 1% to the 1.62% and told me to take two pumps. (correct me if I'm wrong but isn't 2 pumps of 1.62 less than 4 pumps of 1%?). He felt I was pretty close to 400, so there was no reason to increase my dosage further.
Finally I called him a few days later and insisted that he send me to a Urologist, to which he finally agreed. In the mean time while I was waiting to see the urologist I went ahead and started using 2 pumps of 1.62% and 2 pumps of 1%, and that is the best I have felt since November. (not as good as I want to but much better)
I finally saw the Urologist on May 9th, and I told him the the dosage I was taking (2+2), and he switched me to 100mg Test cyp shots every 10 days. Pretty much a day after the shot I felt very anxious for the next two days. (blood tests 1 day after shot (May 10) showed levels jumped to 808) The next 3 days I feel pretty good, and then the following 5 days i feel the rapid decline. So on those days i took 2 pumps of 1% and felt pretty good. (when i say pretty good, I mean i feel managable, not at all where i want to feel)
On the 18 I gave my self the second shot, and my reaction has pretty much been the same as the first shot. Anxiety, semi normal, then a long crash. Although at this time I haven't used any androgel.
So here's my questions.
1) is it normal to have an anxiety rush for a couple of days after the shot? Should I split my dosage to every 5 days? (my dr will probably not agree though) My next shot is on the 29th.
2) my biggest issue is anxiety, emotions, and confidence. I'm concerned that the T is being converted to estrodal but my dr refuses to do the blood test. (is there something i can do to help? I've been taking DIM daily 200mg but it doesn't seem to be the magic bullet)
3) I've had very shakey hands and legs. I try to work out a few times a week. Is this normal with low t and will it go away.
4) Should I use androgel to level out the last few days of the shot to help. If so how much. I've used a half life calculator and it seems to me that on day 5 after the shot, the avaiable T will drop below the 62.5 g that I was taking with the 2+2 pumps.
5) what ever i do, I don't want to skew the next blood test on June 30. I want the numbers to come back not artificaially elivated out side of the shots.
Sorry this post it so long, But this sucks. I'm glad i found this forum. Frankly, I'm really suprised there aren't "support groups" for guys and families with low T like AA or somethig like that.
Thanks for any and all help. I'll do my best to answer any questions.
C
As you can tell I'm new here, but this battle has been very long (seems like too long). Pretty much last November everything came to a head for me. 44 yrs old 6ft 180lbs. Life was going great, and married to a wonderful wife (17 yrs) w two kids.
Then bang it hit like a ton of boulders, paranoia, anxiety, fear, lack of confidence etc, massive emotions, and horrible sleep. I have never had ANY issues like this before. I've been very confident, happy, active, etc, etc. After doing some research and alot of reading I decided to see my Dr in January and asked him to test my T levels. He prescribed me cetelopram (anti depressant (which I am not taking any more)) and drew blood. My T level came back at 294, to which the dr said was in "normal" levels. I wasn't happy with that answer so I changed Dr's and finally saw the new Dr in February. He checked my results and told me my levels were indeed low and started me on Androgel 1% at 1 pump per day.
Techniaclly he actually prescribed me 1 pump Axiron daily and when I went to pick it up, the Phamacist said that they did not have the Axiron, so they called the Dr and he changed it to 1 pump of 1% androgel daily. (which in my opinion was the first mis calculation by the Dr) After 5 1/2 weeks and another blood test my levels went to 314 and the Dr increased me to 2 pumps of 1%.
Finally after some persistance a couple of weeks later I got him to let me take three pumps of Androgel. My last Blood test with him was on April 25 and My level went to 369. I told the Dr at the time that I had started using 4 pumps (since I discovered that 4 pumps was the minimum recommended starting dose, I figured I was safe). Although the Dr was slightly upset I went to four and was feeling moderately better, he agreed and then changed my medication from Androgel 1% to the 1.62% and told me to take two pumps. (correct me if I'm wrong but isn't 2 pumps of 1.62 less than 4 pumps of 1%?). He felt I was pretty close to 400, so there was no reason to increase my dosage further.
Finally I called him a few days later and insisted that he send me to a Urologist, to which he finally agreed. In the mean time while I was waiting to see the urologist I went ahead and started using 2 pumps of 1.62% and 2 pumps of 1%, and that is the best I have felt since November. (not as good as I want to but much better)
I finally saw the Urologist on May 9th, and I told him the the dosage I was taking (2+2), and he switched me to 100mg Test cyp shots every 10 days. Pretty much a day after the shot I felt very anxious for the next two days. (blood tests 1 day after shot (May 10) showed levels jumped to 808) The next 3 days I feel pretty good, and then the following 5 days i feel the rapid decline. So on those days i took 2 pumps of 1% and felt pretty good. (when i say pretty good, I mean i feel managable, not at all where i want to feel)
On the 18 I gave my self the second shot, and my reaction has pretty much been the same as the first shot. Anxiety, semi normal, then a long crash. Although at this time I haven't used any androgel.
So here's my questions.
1) is it normal to have an anxiety rush for a couple of days after the shot? Should I split my dosage to every 5 days? (my dr will probably not agree though) My next shot is on the 29th.
2) my biggest issue is anxiety, emotions, and confidence. I'm concerned that the T is being converted to estrodal but my dr refuses to do the blood test. (is there something i can do to help? I've been taking DIM daily 200mg but it doesn't seem to be the magic bullet)
3) I've had very shakey hands and legs. I try to work out a few times a week. Is this normal with low t and will it go away.
4) Should I use androgel to level out the last few days of the shot to help. If so how much. I've used a half life calculator and it seems to me that on day 5 after the shot, the avaiable T will drop below the 62.5 g that I was taking with the 2+2 pumps.
5) what ever i do, I don't want to skew the next blood test on June 30. I want the numbers to come back not artificaially elivated out side of the shots.
Sorry this post it so long, But this sucks. I'm glad i found this forum. Frankly, I'm really suprised there aren't "support groups" for guys and families with low T like AA or somethig like that.
Thanks for any and all help. I'll do my best to answer any questions.
C