mranak said:
If you don't mind my asking, do you exhibit manic episodes?
Other people have different conditions from your own. The SSRIs can really be of aid to some people. It sounds like you have been able to help yourself through mental cognition and if that works, then nothing beats that.
I used to. I used to be so bad that I would break down crying and stay like that for hours, even days. And I’ve also been to the other extreme where I would damn near kill someone in a fight cause I would lose control over myself and black out. I’ve dulled down to my basic mood swings, and when I feel those thoughts coming on I try not to lose my focus. When I was in high school I used to be very athletic and when college hit I dropped out of everything and hit the mind-altering drugs and alcohol, which was when I reached my extreme. Since I got all out of that, back into training, then strong and big enough again to run Anabolic Androgenic Steroids (AAS) I’ve never been better, I call it finding my focus and having something I truly love and enjoy to focus on. This way I can control these mood swings. I've also met a few people who enabled me to spill my life story, which also makes it easier when someone listens and opinionates.
I recently met a girl who has had a past much harsher then mine; we've spent hours talking about how therapy has helped her be where she is today. And now she helps kids who experience same episodes such as her, myself, and even half of you guys. I truly believe talk to your friends, or a loved one, educate yourself and them on your disorder, and keep your focus, you can deal with and or over-come any of this, and I know I did. Anti-depressants are only a short-term solution to a life long problem in my opinion.
I'm sure by reading some of my posts on here you guys can even see how my moods change. It's very mild, but being hand cuffed, in cop cars, in jail, in hospitals are all memory’s I never wish to live again....
I definitely don't mind talking about it. It took me years to get a grip on my moods.