I really think you underestimate my knowledge.. I did research.. I researched this shit for a year now (I know it's not really improving my confidence it's actually lowering it but still I did my research). If I didn't know what I was doing I would choose a SERM and AI to raise my testosterone levels. I did that on purpose because aromasin and clomid doesn't mess with your natural hormone balance and when coming off there is no rebound effect (a little bit in clomid maybe) as far as I know. I read everywhere that depression and especially low confidence could very well be caused by under-average testosterone levels. I also know that a lot of things might not change. My hips won't shrink and my wrists won't thicken.. But testosterone definitly has an effect on joints and bone-density (I get it.. density doesn't change the shape of my bones allright.) and also on mental well-being. You know that too, you just don't want to admit it because you think I shouldn't use clomid and aromsin. Well.. you might not agree with me here, but I'm pretty sure that if I was born with high free T and DHT (all through life) I wouldn't be so goddamn insecure. It's not a coincidence that I've allways been a quitter and a low status outsider who allways got picked on. I even got picked on because of skinny built and small shoulders. That wouldn't happen if I was a high T male. I really think that this is something that happens in all animals INCLUDING humans. LOW T = low dominance.
If you had done your research as you stated, you would know that AAS DECREASES joint strength and can have a negative impact on connective tissues. There are very few exceptions to this, and even those compounds have a minimal positive impact.
Secondly, what do you think you are taking? Clomid IS a SERM, and the way it works is by tricking your body into thinking you're lacking estrogen. This in turn causes an increase in leutinizing hormone to be released from the pituitary gland, raising the total output by the leydig cells in your testes.
Here is where your plan and research falls short: The holy grail of results you see strewn all over the Internet either are based on a female or a hypogonadal male. If there is nothing wrong with your LH output, you will see lackluster results. I don't even want to touch the fact that you think an AI will help you AND increase bone density as it will have the OPPOSITE effect as estrogen is the chief hormone responsible for bone growth.
Look, I'm not trying to beat up on you by any means, but you seem to think that changing your hormone profile will be the silver bullet for all your woes - I'm simply trying to save you from wasting your time and money.
Some of the most alpha and bad ass dudes I know have test levels in the mid-400's to low 500's (ng/dl). I'm talking guys that have served in the Special Forces and would definitely be the dudes you want backing you up if there was trouble. Should I go tell them that since they have low test, they're pussies?
Not if I want to continue being able to eat solid food.
Trust me, this silly shit about alpha males and aesthetics has nothing to do with your hormones, and more with your outlook on life. But hey, I'm only twice your age - so I probably don't know what I'm talking about.