BADKITTY
Active member
OK guys i know i'm about to show a side of me that you don't often see... I AM RIGHTEOUSLY MOTHAFUCKIN' PISSED OFF.
As you all know, I have competed in NPC figure shows for the past four or so years. I've put in my share of work, and when it stopped being fun, i stopped competing. My last show was in Nov. of '04.
I recently got introduced to powerlifting, and i've been having the time of my life with it. there's not nearly as much pressure and cattiness and bullshit as there is in the figure/bb'ing industry. I HAVE NEVER SAID I WAS GIVING UP COMPETING IN THE NPC. easto even started a thread on it; i love pl'ing, and i love bb'ing, and i realize they have different goals and training programs.
ok, to make a long story short, i recently ran into a girl i used to compete with; she kept asking me when i was going to compete again. i told her i didn't know; she seemed really interested in my powerlifting and the fact that i didn't have a definite show in mind for next year. now, i'm no dummy, and i know she wants me out of competing (she placed behind me in FOUR different shows) but i was not expecting her to just talk straight-up shit on me.
soooooo... as often happens, word gets back to me that she was majorly trashing me in her home gym- she was overheard saying "well, since my main competition is a powerlifter now, i guess i dont have anything to worry about for the _______ show. my trainer says it's a shame she never really hit her full potential..." and proceeds to go on and on about how much weight i've gained and how i'll never get back into figure shows; maybe i should just stick with pl'ing, etc...
WTF??? i know this girl has every reason to hate me (yea, they always hate'cha cause they aint'cha lol) but DAMN... i pride myself on always making friends and not enemies, but this girl has majorly stirred up some shit here. it doesn't help that EVERYONE has been pressuring me to get onstage next year; i DO want to compete again, but i want to do it for ME... and only when i'm ready. in all honesty i'm only 15 lbs heavier than i was in my last show (which is not an obscene amount for offseason, but is still farther away than i need to be for an "ideal" show weight) but i definitely look different because of the heavy lifting. (then again, she's got a beer gut right now, so why am i worrying?
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i've gotten SIX phone calls in the past two days from people asking "is what ____ said true? are you done with the npc?" goddamn, get off my crotch, people!!!! shit, you'd think i was a damn celebrity or something. i'm by far NOT the best around here anyway, so wtf am i getting this shit for???
anyway (if you're still reading this rambling rant lol) my game plan is this-
*I want to look as good as i possibly can. (I understand that one cannot maintain "show shape" all the time; i just mean a low BF and good muscle quality)
*I want to stay focused. (christ, this is MUCH easier said than done...)
*I want to feel accomplished. (kind of a result of staying focused)
*I want to take both PL'ing and Figure as far as i can. (this may not be able to happen simultaneously)
Believe it or not (and i am 100% serious) i do NOT have a strong support system other than this board. I rely on ya'll for a lot, and every time i get a compliment, or some advice or training tips, it makes me feel great. SO:
If nothing else, it makes me feel better to write this out; i haven't had a chance to talk to anyone about it yet (i like to think carefully about what i'm going to say, otherwise i would have already called this girl and tore her a new one lol...). i know that shit-talking ultimately gets you nowhere; which is one reason i dont want to put myself out there and call names and such. I really appreciate the members here, and i hope i've been able to help ya'll if you needed it or asked me to. Now i'm just askin' for a little bit of motivation; by whatever means you think necessary
Thx again;
~MINX
As you all know, I have competed in NPC figure shows for the past four or so years. I've put in my share of work, and when it stopped being fun, i stopped competing. My last show was in Nov. of '04.
I recently got introduced to powerlifting, and i've been having the time of my life with it. there's not nearly as much pressure and cattiness and bullshit as there is in the figure/bb'ing industry. I HAVE NEVER SAID I WAS GIVING UP COMPETING IN THE NPC. easto even started a thread on it; i love pl'ing, and i love bb'ing, and i realize they have different goals and training programs.
ok, to make a long story short, i recently ran into a girl i used to compete with; she kept asking me when i was going to compete again. i told her i didn't know; she seemed really interested in my powerlifting and the fact that i didn't have a definite show in mind for next year. now, i'm no dummy, and i know she wants me out of competing (she placed behind me in FOUR different shows) but i was not expecting her to just talk straight-up shit on me.
soooooo... as often happens, word gets back to me that she was majorly trashing me in her home gym- she was overheard saying "well, since my main competition is a powerlifter now, i guess i dont have anything to worry about for the _______ show. my trainer says it's a shame she never really hit her full potential..." and proceeds to go on and on about how much weight i've gained and how i'll never get back into figure shows; maybe i should just stick with pl'ing, etc...
WTF??? i know this girl has every reason to hate me (yea, they always hate'cha cause they aint'cha lol) but DAMN... i pride myself on always making friends and not enemies, but this girl has majorly stirred up some shit here. it doesn't help that EVERYONE has been pressuring me to get onstage next year; i DO want to compete again, but i want to do it for ME... and only when i'm ready. in all honesty i'm only 15 lbs heavier than i was in my last show (which is not an obscene amount for offseason, but is still farther away than i need to be for an "ideal" show weight) but i definitely look different because of the heavy lifting. (then again, she's got a beer gut right now, so why am i worrying?
)i've gotten SIX phone calls in the past two days from people asking "is what ____ said true? are you done with the npc?" goddamn, get off my crotch, people!!!! shit, you'd think i was a damn celebrity or something. i'm by far NOT the best around here anyway, so wtf am i getting this shit for???
anyway (if you're still reading this rambling rant lol) my game plan is this-
*I want to look as good as i possibly can. (I understand that one cannot maintain "show shape" all the time; i just mean a low BF and good muscle quality)
*I want to stay focused. (christ, this is MUCH easier said than done...)
*I want to feel accomplished. (kind of a result of staying focused)
*I want to take both PL'ing and Figure as far as i can. (this may not be able to happen simultaneously)
Believe it or not (and i am 100% serious) i do NOT have a strong support system other than this board. I rely on ya'll for a lot, and every time i get a compliment, or some advice or training tips, it makes me feel great. SO:
WHAT I NEED FROM YOU
*ANYTIME you think of it (AND I MEAN THIS) please PM or email me and tell me to step it up, kick my own ass, train hard, whatever you want to say that you think will be motivational. it's really, REALLY hard to do this alone, especially when i have to listen to bullshit like the current situation. If nothing else, it makes me feel better to write this out; i haven't had a chance to talk to anyone about it yet (i like to think carefully about what i'm going to say, otherwise i would have already called this girl and tore her a new one lol...). i know that shit-talking ultimately gets you nowhere; which is one reason i dont want to put myself out there and call names and such. I really appreciate the members here, and i hope i've been able to help ya'll if you needed it or asked me to. Now i'm just askin' for a little bit of motivation; by whatever means you think necessary
Thx again;~MINX
