I am only 22 years old and I’m going through hell, here's a little background story to give you an idea where I stand
At the age of 18 when I began college I started using the college gym met some guys who offered me juice, with my low budget I ignorantly accepted the offer since I was a late bloomer, only when through puberty around 15, lacked confidence,
all the guys around me were having fun getting girls etc, so I done some poor online research ignored everyone who said I’m too young to cycle and went ahead to start my very first test only cycle at 500mg a week for 12 weeks when i was only 18,
saw massive gains and immediately saw more confidence etc,
off cycle my gains began disappearing and the confidence etc seemed to go with it, so I continued doing cycles to maintain this ignorant addiction, ended up doing 1 cycle when i was 18, 1 cycle when i was 19, 2 when i was 20, 2 when i was 21,
and one earlier this year when I was 22.
which makes it a total of 7 cycles, the first 6 were all the same 12 week test e 500mg per week with a 2 week clomid post cycle therapy (pct).
The one I done earlier this year was a 12 week test e cycle with 400mg deca per week, i ended this cycle in February this year waited about 24 days and done a 3 week post cycle therapy (pct) of clomid, 100mg per day week 1, 50mg per day week 2, 25mg per day week 3,
Its now October which is about 8 months since i ended this post cycle therapy (pct), since the end of this cycle I’ve had no sex drive, no motivation to go out and get girls like I used to, general tiredness, so I went out and done a testosterone test a few days ago,
my Total testosterone was at a shocking low of 56 ng/dl , I was expecting it to be low after 3 years of ignorant bashing on my endocrine system but was expecting it to be much higher after 8 months being off cycle, I am really depressed and in deep regret,
I have made a serious mistake out of youthful ignorance for superficial gain, compromising my health. I am afraid i could have possibly permanantly dmaged my hpta axis and would possibly and i really hope not need testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) for life due to this mistake,
my question is how do i go about recovering my natural test levels, i cannot currently afford to see an endocrinologist and would need as much positive feedback from knowledge members in this area. I am only 22 have a whole life ahead of me,
and I have pledged not to ever touch juice if i recover back to my natty levels until I’m at least 30 years old. I have access to clomid nolvadex and Human Chorionic Gonadotropin (HCG) which I know can help me recover butwould also just give temprorary help,
If so how would i go about using the Human Chorionic Gonadotropin (HCG) and clomid to at least help kickstart my natural production. Am i permanently damaged, what else could I use to increase my LH and fsh ? any help would be much appreciated,
and let this post please be a warning to all other young adults that when people say you are too young they have good reason, I made the mistake please don’t. My current stats: 22 years old, 78kg,
(lost about 8kg since my cycle began, also I suffered from pneumonia last month and completely lost my diet as well which made me lose gains faster) bf% 14 .
Thanks in advance
At the age of 18 when I began college I started using the college gym met some guys who offered me juice, with my low budget I ignorantly accepted the offer since I was a late bloomer, only when through puberty around 15, lacked confidence,
all the guys around me were having fun getting girls etc, so I done some poor online research ignored everyone who said I’m too young to cycle and went ahead to start my very first test only cycle at 500mg a week for 12 weeks when i was only 18,
saw massive gains and immediately saw more confidence etc,
off cycle my gains began disappearing and the confidence etc seemed to go with it, so I continued doing cycles to maintain this ignorant addiction, ended up doing 1 cycle when i was 18, 1 cycle when i was 19, 2 when i was 20, 2 when i was 21,
and one earlier this year when I was 22.
which makes it a total of 7 cycles, the first 6 were all the same 12 week test e 500mg per week with a 2 week clomid post cycle therapy (pct).
The one I done earlier this year was a 12 week test e cycle with 400mg deca per week, i ended this cycle in February this year waited about 24 days and done a 3 week post cycle therapy (pct) of clomid, 100mg per day week 1, 50mg per day week 2, 25mg per day week 3,
Its now October which is about 8 months since i ended this post cycle therapy (pct), since the end of this cycle I’ve had no sex drive, no motivation to go out and get girls like I used to, general tiredness, so I went out and done a testosterone test a few days ago,
my Total testosterone was at a shocking low of 56 ng/dl , I was expecting it to be low after 3 years of ignorant bashing on my endocrine system but was expecting it to be much higher after 8 months being off cycle, I am really depressed and in deep regret,
I have made a serious mistake out of youthful ignorance for superficial gain, compromising my health. I am afraid i could have possibly permanantly dmaged my hpta axis and would possibly and i really hope not need testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) for life due to this mistake,
my question is how do i go about recovering my natural test levels, i cannot currently afford to see an endocrinologist and would need as much positive feedback from knowledge members in this area. I am only 22 have a whole life ahead of me,
and I have pledged not to ever touch juice if i recover back to my natty levels until I’m at least 30 years old. I have access to clomid nolvadex and Human Chorionic Gonadotropin (HCG) which I know can help me recover butwould also just give temprorary help,
If so how would i go about using the Human Chorionic Gonadotropin (HCG) and clomid to at least help kickstart my natural production. Am i permanently damaged, what else could I use to increase my LH and fsh ? any help would be much appreciated,
and let this post please be a warning to all other young adults that when people say you are too young they have good reason, I made the mistake please don’t. My current stats: 22 years old, 78kg,
(lost about 8kg since my cycle began, also I suffered from pneumonia last month and completely lost my diet as well which made me lose gains faster) bf% 14 .
Thanks in advance
