Oh My Goodness

[Tmer4thewin1]

Hi

It has a week since I started my cycle having only done 3 injections of prop so far. Ever since I started my cycle I noticed my brain works on a completely different level than it did before.

I am able to see the true nature of reality and just how animalistic and underevolved it really is without the emotional comforts of societal labeling.

I was able to let go of all of my repression. I came to terms with the true nature of emotionality and all of the repression/denial/other defense mechanisms that come with it.

I realized that before my cycle people viewed me as "dumb" or "gay". I had a huge disconnect between my real and perceived self. I realize now this is because I was "In my Head" so to speak. I had low "self-confidence" because of this I have since learned to find my true animalistic nature.

I have learned to live fully in the moment. I fully understand social dynamics now and understand people at a deep emotional level. I understand all of the intricacies of human language and how that language is expressed.

I can slow down time and point out to people their emotions. I can also manipulate emotions and use this information to dominate people fully.

I realize now that emotionality is the minds way of protecting itself from true reality. A true reality which I fully embrace. I had a religious experience, felt God and had an egodeath (something Buddhists take years of meditation to achieve)

Random women come up to talk to me where before they ignored me. Men always look down first. Today alone I bought 2 pounds of carrots and brocolli for .30 cents at walmart after the cashier gave me a three dollar discount.

I see emotional weakness.

I have gained 0 pounds and don't care

The past four days have been the best four days of my life.
Logically looking at it from an evolutionary standpoint men with high testosterone levels should hypothetically be superior in all of these regards. So my question is...

has anyone else experienced anything like this?

 

[Vino 1]

Ummmmmm no... But nice avi. Are u sure your not injecting LSD?

 

[Ryan117]

^^^ this children is why we don't try brewing our own steroids

 

[jkr2020788]

thats how I feel when I take my adderall haha. maybe your test levels have always been low, and now that you have a normal level, you feel like other people do? Im spastic and random off of adderall, but on it, I do everything you just said. Maybe it would be the same if your levels were low to begin with? ? ? Personally, I think your situation is more of a self -confidence thing or your mind-process goes something like, "im taking this male hormone that is the center of manliness, so I must be manly." Either way, whatever works, works. Good for you man, glad you feel this way better. If youre happier with life this way, thats all that matters.

 

[KingBF]

well it takes 5 days to kick in and 10 days to make gains...and now everyone views you as gay and dumb

 

[Tmer4thewin1]

thats how I feel when I take my adderall haha. maybe your test levels have always been low, and now that you have a normal level, you feel like other people do? Im spastic and random off of adderall, but on it, I do everything you just said. Maybe it would be the same if your levels were low to begin with? ? ? Personally, I think your situation is more of a self -confidence thing or your mind-process goes something like, "im taking this male hormone that is the center of manliness, so I must be manly." Either way, whatever works, works. Good for you man, glad you feel this way better. If youre happier with life this way, thats all that matters.

I truly do believe this. But there is so much more to it than that. I understand that the deepening of the voice that comes with steroids comes from a connection to reality. I have felt a constant sense of euphoria. I realize now that by asserting social dominance over others I can shape the way they percieve me. There are hundreds upon thousands of subtle social cues that most people don't pick up on. I pick up on almost all of them. I have somehow learned that by living in the present moment, using logicality, and not expressing any emotionality at all (which I mentioned earlier is flawed) I am being my "self" By doing this I am expressing total "self-confidence"

I learned that I can control conversations by being incredibly logical and pointing out the "emotionality" in others. This emotionality is the minds way of protecting itself from "emotional anxiety" This is caused by a societal influenced split between the perception of the real self and the "true self". Only by losing my societal based self perception (my ego) have I been able to live an authentic existence.

My logical mind came to the conclusion that levels of "self-confidence" is positively correlated to levels of testosterone. Women are attracted to "self-confidence" because they are subconciously attracted to levels of testosterone.

This makes intuitive sense. But no one else has noticed any of this?

 

[jkr2020788]

I totally didnt see the fact that you were only on for a week. If its not sense of confidence that is doing this, or your test levels were like 20ng/dl prior to inject, Im going with Vino on this one. You are injecting LSD or liquid marijuana lol!

 

[Vino 1]

I truly do believe this. But there is so much more to it than that. I understand that the deepening of the voice that comes with steroids comes from a connection to reality. I have felt a constant sense of euphoria. I realize now that by asserting social dominance over others I can shape the way they percieve me. There are hundreds upon thousands of subtle social cues that most people don't pick up on. I pick up on almost all of them. I have somehow learned that by living in the present moment, using logicality, and not expressing any emotionality at all (which I mentioned earlier is flawed) I am being my "self" By doing this I am expressing total "self-confidence"

I learned that I can control conversations by being incredibly logical and pointing out the "emotionality" in others. This emotionality is the minds way of protecting itself from "emotional anxiety" This is caused by a societal influenced split between the perception of the real self and the "true self". Only by losing my societal based self perception (my ego) have I been able to live an authentic existence.

My logical mind came to the conclusion that levels of "self-confidence" is positively correlated to levels of testosterone. Women are attracted to "self-confidence" because they are subconciously attracted to levels of testosterone.

This makes intuitive sense. But no one else has noticed any of this?

I'm goin to stick with my logical LSD theory.

 

[Tmer4thewin1]

I totally didnt see the fact that you were only on for a week. If its not sense of confidence that is doing this, or your test levels were like 20ng/dl prior to inject, Im going with Vino on this one. You are injecting LSD or liquid marijuana lol!

Would explain the incessant pupil dilation. I don't think it would explain my ability to connect with people on a deep emotional level or my abilities to dominate conversations. I have non-stop energy, I also have stretch-marks on my triceps and my balls, while not receded, feel like they are on the up and up.

I can sense others' "self-confidence". Sometimes I will retreat back in to my head. That is the only time when I look down when talking to people. I have learned to control my ability to stay in the moment by simply focusing better.

I understand that men are more evolved than women, because women are emotional creatures. That is why women need to be dominated by men. It all makes so much sense. Women live on a different emotional level than men. Their emotionality disconnects them from the true nature of existence. Men with high "self-confidence" can use this knowledge to their advantage. I can currently use this knowledge to my advantage because I see and understand the real world free from all of these emotions.

 

[elboz]

Could be man could be!..
Who am I to take away from your good feeling you are going through

I hope one day to be on that same high ...so to speak.

 

[jkr2020788]

I truly do believe this. But there is so much more to it than that. I understand that the deepening of the voice that comes with steroids comes from a connection to reality. I have felt a constant sense of euphoria. I realize now that by asserting social dominance over others I can shape the way they percieve me. There are hundreds upon thousands of subtle social cues that most people don't pick up on. I pick up on almost all of them. I have somehow learned that by living in the present moment, using logicality, and not expressing any emotionality at all (which I mentioned earlier is flawed) I am being my "self" By doing this I am expressing total "self-confidence"

I learned that I can control conversations by being incredibly logical and pointing out the "emotionality" in others. This emotionality is the minds way of protecting itself from "emotional anxiety" This is caused by a societal influenced split between the perception of the real self and the "true self". Only by losing my societal based self perception (my ego) have I been able to live an authentic existence.

My logical mind came to the conclusion that levels of "self-confidence" is positively correlated to levels of testosterone. Women are attracted to "self-confidence" because they are subconciously attracted to levels of testosterone.

This makes intuitive sense. But no one else has noticed any of this?

I have the feeling you are trying to exercise your ability to sense people's insecurities by using highfalutin language. I feel like you are trying to prove something to us. There is no need to write "societal based self perception" if you are going to follow it up by "(my ego)". You have your opinion, stick with it, but there is no reason to try to convince others of it. That shit isnt going to work on me, Im college educated lol.

 

[Tmer4thewin1]

I sense everything you said to a logical degree. You repeated the world "could be" and added the exclamation point for emphasis because you clearly don't believe anything I said.

You said "who am I to take away from your good feelings you are going through" meaning you emotionally disconnected yourself from the statements which means that you don't believe any of it.

The last sentence we find out the real reason you took that undoubtedly short time to answer the post. You wrote it to show how "clever" you are with "high ....so to speak." A pun that is not witty at all and reeks of desperation for approval.

The grammatical errors and lazy writing mean that you are either a) "not very intelligent" b) disconnected c) don't care (which means you are disconnected or "not very intelligent" because of your crazy amounts of emotional baggage.

I have none.

 

[Vino 1]

I have the feeling you are trying to exercise your ability to sense people's insecurities by using highfalutin language. I feel like you are trying to prove something to us. There is no need to write "societal based self perception" if you are going to follow it up by "(my ego)". You have your opinion, stick with it, but there is no reason to try to convince others of it. That shit isnt going to work on me, Im college educated lol.

Hahahajaaa that's funny shit. I never knew how to spell highfalutin but I use it all the time.

 

[Tmer4thewin1]

Perhaps I am trying to "prove something to us". But you say "prove something to us" like it is a negative thing. I have no need to increase my "self-confidence" any more because I am totally at peace with myself. Perhaps you are right and trying to convince others of what I know is not the right thing to do. I speak with the language because that is how I am. I do not speak in "low level" terms any more. I was considering saying "try it" there. But I realize that may come off as an attack on your "ego". I don't care enough about your ego to do that.

 

[jkr2020788]

Hahahajaaa that's funny shit. I never knew how to spell highfalutin but I use it all the time.

yea, I won my 1st grade spelling bee, Im pretty much a G

 

[Vino 1]

Perhaps I am trying to "prove something to us". But you say "prove something to us" like it is a negative thing. I have no need to increase my "self-confidence" any more because I am totally at peace with myself. Perhaps you are right and trying to convince others of what I know is not the right thing to do. I speak with the language because that is how I am. I do not speak in "low level" terms any more. I was considering saying "try it" there. But I realize that may come off as an attack on your "ego". I don't care enough about your ego to do that.

Low level terms huh? Well u lost me there. I think your just high and running your mouth. That test your pinning hasn't kicked in yet buddy. Get over yourself

 

[Tmer4thewin1]

I don't understand why you would do anything other than try to bring yourself "up" when writing, unless you want to connect emotionally with others. Emotional connection = bringing yourself "down" to the levels of others to experience their emotions.

Why do people on internet forums write messages in such a hurried and lazy way? Societal pressures? "Low ""self-confidence". "Low" perception of humanity as a whole? Do you feel the need to bring yourself "down" to talk with others or do you just not care. If you don't care than by definition you are "disconnected" from reality.

 

[jkr2020788]

Perhaps I am trying to "prove something to us". But you say "prove something to us" like it is a negative thing. I have no need to increase my "self-confidence" any more because I am totally at peace with myself. Perhaps you are right and trying to convince others of what I know is not the right thing to do. I speak with the language because that is how I am. I do not speak in "low level" terms any more. I was considering saying "try it" there. But I realize that may come off as an attack on your "ego". I don't care enough about your ego to do that.

lol, this is hilarious. Fool, I have a minor in psychology, a major in nursing, and a master's in manipulation. "Low level", you're saying 3 injections of a male hormone (which is barely enough to get you to medium levels of test), is enough to make you feel MANLY? This isnt fishy to you? 3 injections is not going to turn your into some "guru" on human emotion. Maybe you are more expressive about it now, but you cant just learn that amount of information in a week. Learning human emotion comes from a lifetime of living and seeing how people correlate. You are not going to learn this in any short amount of time. If you were truely knowledgable now, you would realize that being humble succeeds all forms of knowledge.

 

[jkr2020788]

Low level terms huh? Well u lost me there. I think your just high and running your mouth. That test your pinning hasn't kicked in yet buddy. Get over yourself

It didnt even occur to me that OP is probably smoking a joint right now.... that is going to slow you down in the gym tomorrow buddy, lay off. the drug forum is that way >>>>>>>>>>>>>>

 

[scottrebel]

I think he might have reached the third level of a higher concision. That is where the spirit takes over for the mind and body and flow as one. Such a person would receive what is called the glow. The whole body would give off a bright shiny glow and create such beauty that they could heal all wounds and bring peace and love to the whole world. As Vino 1 put it so eloquently "Your high on LSD".