Ok serious advice here. What the fuck is wrong? Will paypal to whoever can figure

[toco]

this out.



Ok so to start off, im currently on 250sustanon, 600mg of deca and 400mg of NPP. Been blast and cruising for about a year with no Human Chorionic Gonadotropin (HCG) and using all different compounds.

Now I aborted my previous cycle of exactly the same a couple of months ago because basically the same as im feeling now I will try my best to describe. OK, so.

I feel fucking NUMB. NO EMOTIONS, well maybe 10% when I think of my girlfriend in a 3sum or fucking another guy I get pissed off. But apart from that I feel fucking bland. I feel like im crusing thru life
not enjoying anything. My girlfriend is upset with me because she says I don't laugh much anymore and is blaming herself, ill be honest how can I laugh when I feel I have no emotions. I Feel blank and bland as I stated just cruising day by day. I enjoy sleeping, im in love with this girl and the lack of emotions is killing me. No butterflys when we kiss I don't feel as happy but it goes for everything in general. Even with mates I barely laugh because I feel numb. Is it my sleep? I had a sleeping study done and it came back fine. but I do wake up once or twice a night so maybe the brain is getting interrupted. I do feel foggy and sometimes like im drifting and not fully connected to reality. Im now in week 4 of my cycle and strength is starting to kick in, I came off for 3-4weeks a while ago before I started this cycle and felt SO much better. I was more talkative, I remember telling a mate how good I feel and ill never get back on cycle again and infact I felt so good that after blast and cruising I wasn't even gonna do a post cycle therapy (pct) because I just felt heaps better. Feelings were starting to come back a little bit, cant really remember was a lil while ago when I was off but I just remember I felt better. Srsly what the fuck is causing this. I had E2 and prolactin checked and both within range, and even on my previous cycle when I was feeling this I tried adjusting liquidex from 0.25mg to ed to eod and then 0.5 ed and eod, no fuckin difference. Test came back fine etc, gear is all legit.

prolactin was in range and everything. Im QUITE positive its the steroids causing be to feel this way because i can remember feeling better when i hadn't taken ANY injectinos for 3-4weeks. Then silly me decided to hop on this current cycle. Ive got another 4-5weeks left and really trying to hold it out because i have a holiday and i wanna look my best but shit fellas im really struggling. Honestly it kills me when im in love with my missus to hear her say she blames herself for not having me laugh much anymore. But how can i as i said when i feel numb. Im trying to bandaid the situation as i love the way i look and strength on cycle but honestly this is the last cycle i do.


also. when it comes to a sat night im normally to tired to go out and CBF, but i remember when i come off for 3-4 weeks i fuckin was pumped to go out on a sat night.

Is my body telling me it needs a break from the steroid abuse over the last year or so and needs to post cycle therapy (pct) or just take a break from injections for a while then see what happens. Honestly im really not starting to care much if i lose mass if i feel a lot better. I had a great natural base before i even touched steroids and filled out shirts anyway. And got plenty of girl attention so what the hell is going on.

Cliffs
Feel numb and emotionless on cycle
Cant really even cry because i feel hazy and i seem to be like a broken memory card, i forget the emotion withn a few mins, doesn't feel like it sticks.
What the fuck is causing this?


Anyone that can help i wil paypal them money.(srs). Is it time to get off. IN FACT hows this for yall, i plan on stopping 2 weeks before holiday so i start feeling great for the holiday. Now wouldn't it be the other way round, stop 2 weeks start feeling shit because im starting to crash but nope the 4 weeks i was off i felt the best i ever did!

Also feel mentally stressed, get anxiety and paranoia and feel worthless a lot of the time.


Imagine what its like to not cry and you feel like you cant. I cant seem to cry, i even think of tragic things and after ages of thinking of bad shit i might get a few tears then im all good again.

 

[3ct]

body needs a break from the steroid abuse over the last year or so and needs to post cycle therapy (pct) or just take a break from injections for a while then see what happens.

PM me for PayPal.

 

[bigtimechief]

Seriously, what the hell is wrong with you? You post this crap several times a week, and everyone says the same thing. GET OFF AAS! You're obvioulsy miserable. Why the heck do you keep going back to the well when it's not working for you?

Either MAN UP, or drop the gear. Stop whining, stop making these posts, and make a decision. Simple as that.

Sorry to be harsh, but you've walking on the ledge for a while now. Drop the roids and come back in the building. Geez.

 

[toco]

Yes but what i don't understand is ive read MULTIPLE FORUMS and posts and everything and no one has the same issues as i do. So there must be something causing this. I never had this last year, only the last few months or so. But i cant seem to find what is triggering it.

 

[toco]

Hmm ok well look ive only got 4-5weeks left. Do you believe that after the steroids start leaving my body ill start clearing up again?

 

[DreDay187]

If you're that serious about wanting to get better and it in fact is the AAS, why would you finish off the cycle rather than terminate it early? Why would you do no post cycle therapy (pct) just bc you felt "great". Everyone of your threads seems to be about the same issue/s and if you seriously thinks its the AAS GET OFF NOW. I don't think this is your last cycle, I don't think you'll end this cycle now, and the minute you get a chance I think you'll hop back on another cycle. It's a fetch to me for you to put the needles down for good, you as much as say it in your posts.

 

[bigtimechief]

Here's a thought. Drop them now! You'll be on here a couple days complaining again if you don't. You're seriously being a whiny bitch. Don't put yourself through this anymore!

 

[toco]

But how can AAS cause this sort of feeling, feels like the emotions have been sucked right out of me, sorta like a dementor from harry potter sucks the feelings out of the people in that film series haha.

And how come this has only been going on a few months and everything last year was going great. Could you guys point any sort of finger at to what the cause could be. And yes i am DEFFS stopping after this cycle, weather i see it thru, or if i stop it NOW. I wont be going back that's a promise unless when i come off i still feel the same then its not the aas causing it.

 

[toco]

Only reason being is i have a wedding coming up and on holidays for a whiel and want to look my best and hence chose AAS to assist me. But hell you guys are right whats the point of looking good if you feel like shit attempting to. But i would stop 2 weeks before my holiday so i would feel great for it. Because if its anything like last time i came off for 3-4 weeks then it should work out i will feel awesome for the holiday and im using the exact same lab gear so that's a plus.

 

[toco]

Do you guys think its the brain sending off signals for a break? Hence blocking the emotions that certain parts of my brain sends signals to or some shit.?

EFFECTING the neurotransmitters?

i even feel like im in a bit of a dream writing this, bit of cognitive imparment like im not really even here, feel like i am behind a barrier and my brain feels sluggish.

 

[bigtimechief]

You can't ask those questions bro. There isn't going to be an answer. PERIOD.

I know what you're going through. I'm guessing you obsess about this day and night. Constantly checking your emotions to see how you feel.

You have to fix this problem at the source, and drop AAS. Don't be an idiot. Be a MAN. Drop the gear and walk away. I'm done talking with you.

 

[juced_porkchop]

seriously, what the hell is wrong with you? You post this crap several times a week, and everyone says the same thing. Get off aas! You're obvioulsy miserable. Why the heck do you keep going back to the well when it's not working for you?

either man up, or drop the gear. Stop whining, stop making these posts, and make a decision. Simple as that.

Sorry to be harsh, but you've walking on the ledge for a while now. Drop the roids and come back in the building. Geez.

this----^

 

[71Avido]

i even feel like im in a bit of a dream writing this, bit of cognitive imparment like im not really even here, feel like i am behind a barrier and my brain feels sluggish.

It's amazing the sheer volume of causes for symptoms like that.
I've been living with symptoms like that for close to 6 years now and I don't even cycle.

 

[toco]

You can't ask those questions bro. There isn't going to be an answer. PERIOD.

I know what you're going through. I'm guessing you obsess about this day and night. Constantly checking your emotions to see how you feel.

You have to fix this problem at the source, and drop AAS. Don't be an idiot. Be a MAN. Drop the gear and walk away. I'm done talking with you.

I will admit im an addict. And i have the mentality now after being on for so long that how the fk will i gain without juice. YES I HAVE THAT FUCKING MENTALITY NOW. I have heard it happens to a lot of people, they believe they cant gain without AAS. So instead of trying to bandaid the situation you believe drop the biggest thing im doing right now AAS and see how i feel from there. And if its not the culprit, which i believe it personally is then try other things?

 

[juced_porkchop]

Yes but what i don't understand is ive read MULTIPLE FORUMS and posts and everything and no one has the same issues as i do. So there must be something causing this. I never had this last year, only the last few months or so. But i cant seem to find what is triggering it.

its what you dont want it to be, aas..

i feel "off" when on deca... but not to the point you do. hormones play a role in emotion, that is known..

I neve ruse more then 400mg deca ew btw..

maybe try 500mg test and 200-300mg deca and see how you feel if you are not gonna come off. why all the prog aas?

 

[toco]

It's amazing the sheer volume of causes for symptoms like that.
I've been living with symptoms like that for close to 6 years now and I don't even cycle.

Do you have any idea what the cause may be?

 

[juced_porkchop]

If you're that serious about wanting to get better and it in fact is the AAS, why would you finish off the cycle rather than terminate it early? Why would you do no post cycle therapy (pct) just bc you felt "great". Everyone of your threads seems to be about the same issue/s and if you seriously thinks its the AAS GET OFF NOW. I don't think this is your last cycle, I don't think you'll end this cycle now, and the minute you get a chance I think you'll hop back on another cycle. It's a fetch to me for you to put the needles down for good, you as much as say it in your posts.

and DO A post cycle therapy (pct)> you dont FEEL recovery.. you need to help it imo. and if you dont then go for blood work in a couple months to be sure its fixed ( you are recovered).

 

[juced_porkchop]

even if its not the CAUSE and you DO have soem sort of mental issue. the aas is probably making it worse.

 

[toco]

its what you dont want it to be, aas..

i feel "off" when on deca... but not to the point you do. hormones play a role in emotion, that is known..

I neve ruse more then 400mg deca ew btw..

maybe try 500mg test and 200-300mg deca and see how you feel if you are not gonna come off. why all the prog aas?

was using the NPP to kickstart my cycle mate instead of dbol or prop or something thought id go with NPP for 4-5 weeks or so. Almost out of it.

Mate no matter what ive used in the last little while i still feel the same, ive even tried prop and tren combo, i still felt numb and emotionless, so im assuming its the steroids all together.

so you personally think the cause for this is AAS. im HOPING it wasn't just a placebo effect when i came off for 3-4 weeks. Oh im off steroids now i feel heaps better. and in fact it was the actualy AAS causing it!.

i want the girlfriend to be happy because i want to marry her. Im in love with here more than anything and i will propose, but how can i feel happy when i feel numb and have no emotions.

find it hard to cry and really have to try hard to even get a tear out.

 

[DreDay187]

But how can AAS cause this sort of feeling, feels like the emotions have been sucked right out of me, sorta like a dementor from harry potter sucks the feelings out of the people in that film series haha.

And how come this has only been going on a few months and everything last year was going great. Could you guys point any sort of finger at to what the cause could be. And yes i am DEFFS stopping after this cycle, weather i see it thru, or if i stop it NOW. I wont be going back that's a promise unless when i come off i still feel the same then its not the aas causing it.

And that last par is the reason you'll never be able to fully put the needle down. Here's another thought for you, what if AAS has caused some permanent, irrevesible damage? Would you still go back on? I think you would, for the same reason you can't get off now, you're mentally addicted to the feeling and you're chasing a high. I'm not here to be bullshitted, either get off or don't, but do NOT make definitive promises of not going back on than at the last second add a qualifying statement like "unless it wasn't the ass..."