I don't know how I let it get like this. I was always in shape as a young man. I have done steroids in my 20's and 30's. I'm getting divorced, and started lifting again. I actually was 385lbs 2 months ago. I'm going to do a cycle of 12 weeks and was thinking 600 week test, 400 decca, dbol first 6 weeks, A'dex during cycle followed by hcg, tamoxifen, and clomid post cycle. I don't have a heart problem. Am I going to kill myself? This old flame wants the old me and has no clue how gross I am now. She looks good!I have 4 months max to try and get as close as I can to in some sort of shape. ANY advice would be greatly appreciated.