Blood test tomarrow, 21 years old, I feel lost in this world, and i want to be heard

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I have dual insurance, but decided to do the 50$ labcorb test online. Everybody in my family is strongly against this. They do not understand that it will be difficult for a young person like me, to walk into a doctors room, and order him to order me a T test. And hope that even if I am void of T, that he will do anything about it. I hope that I do not have low T. I do not want to do what you guys do. If the pros outweigh the cons, I will. It cannot get anyworse, even though history has shown it has.

I fit the profile to the T. We tried to combat my lethargic and depressed mood swings, with a psychiatrist. I was given anti depressants and then adderall. I hated these. adderall did work, but It just felt wrong. stimulants were not the answer, they caused more problems then they solved. When I was around 8, i was offered Growth Hormone, my mom turned it down. I do not put much care about the bodybuilding qualities testosterone has. I hate the way I feel.

I do not need to explain to you how I feel, as i am sure you already know. But, besides the common feelings such as no motivation or drive, no boners, I feel feminine. I am not attracted to men, I have never been. I just have nothing in me to want to purse women. I have a very tiny bone structure, alike a female. This probably isn't a result of low T, But I find it Odd that my father is 6'5 and I am 5'6 with VERY tiny hands. I have a very soft body, a muscular chest shaped like a female, But I do not have gyno. I am not concerned about the psychical aspects of my self as much as the emotional well being. I feel like shit, I hate life, and I think it is because I have no drive to do anything. My mom takes care of me, and I am nearly 22. I will not make it in this world without her.

I do not even know why I am still rambling on, I guess I just do not have anyone to talk to who really understands. I have been lurking here for around 2 years. The big day is tomorrow. If I have low T, I do not even know where to start. I live in a small town full of losers, this includes the doctor. Should I pursue a doctor in the city? I am near St. Louis. I am in fear that If my intuition proves to be correct, how difficult it is going to be to connect with someone who will treat me. I hope I am right and wrong. If I am right, then I know the a bridge to the source of many problems in my life, if I am wrong, the hunt continues, so does the pain. I do not know what to do.
 
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Don't worry Bro. Lots of guys are 5'-6" with small structures. Now about the sex drive, It could be low-T, so your test will tell you. If it is, then you'll get testosterone and it will help. Just take it one step at a time. If it's not low-T, then you need to go to a specialist to figure out what's going on. Again, one step at a time. Don't stress. You'll figure it out and be good to go!
 
Hey bro, I hear ya. Sounds like your symptoms are pretty severe. You've come a great community that is great about helping one another. It sounds to me like you are dealing with a lot right now, so just take it one day at a time. You've made it 21 years, and the medical community has come a long way in that time.

Also, I live in Lake Saint Louis outside of St Louis, so not all is lost. Just keep us updated on how you're doing and I'm sure we all will do what we can to help.

Like I said, don't worry about finding a place to treat you. I live near you (most likely) and have found help where needed.

Keep us posted
 
It might be more than just hormones. Should probably just go see a doc and get checked out. It could be one of the XXY type genetic things. They have all the hypogonad issues along with other characteristics you might have.
 
I've been through some of the same stuff. I started testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) at 22. Been on many different anti-depressants since age 12. It does get better. Keep looking for answers. Your not alone thats for sure.
 
there are a lot of things that cause low T. so if you do have low T then testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) isnt always the best option.

i have primary hypogonadism due to injury so my diagnosis was simple.
 
Hang in there..until you know your levels, you ll not know diddley. And until you start to take matter s in your hands your alway s gonna be full of self pity.
 
I have dual insurance, but decided to do the 50$ labcorb test online. Everybody in my family is strongly against this. They do not understand that it will be difficult for a young person like me, to walk into a doctors room, and order him to order me a T test. And hope that even if I am void of T, that he will do anything about it. I hope that I do not have low T. I do not want to do what you guys do. If the pros outweigh the cons, I will. It cannot get anyworse, even though history has shown it has.

I fit the profile to the T. We tried to combat my lethargic and depressed mood swings, with a psychiatrist. I was given anti depressants and then adderall. I hated these. adderall did work, but It just felt wrong. stimulants were not the answer, they caused more problems then they solved. When I was around 8, i was offered Growth Hormone, my mom turned it down. I do not put much care about the bodybuilding qualities testosterone has. I hate the way I feel.

I do not need to explain to you how I feel, as i am sure you already know. But, besides the common feelings such as no motivation or drive, no boners, I feel feminine. I am not attracted to men, I have never been. I just have nothing in me to want to purse women. I have a very tiny bone structure, alike a female. This probably isn't a result of low T, But I find it Odd that my father is 6'5 and I am 5'6 with VERY tiny hands. I have a very soft body, a muscular chest shaped like a female, But I do not have gyno. I am not concerned about the psychical aspects of my self as much as the emotional well being. I feel like shit, I hate life, and I think it is because I have no drive to do anything. My mom takes care of me, and I am nearly 22. I will not make it in this world without her.

I do not even know why I am still rambling on, I guess I just do not have anyone to talk to who really understands. I have been lurking here for around 2 years. The big day is tomorrow. If I have low T, I do not even know where to start. I live in a small town full of losers, this includes the doctor. Should I pursue a doctor in the city? I am near St. Louis. I am in fear that If my intuition proves to be correct, how difficult it is going to be to connect with someone who will treat me. I hope I am right and wrong. If I am right, then I know the a bridge to the source of many problems in my life, if I am wrong, the hunt continues, so does the pain. I do not know what to do.

I deal with quite quite a few younger guys and we attempt to "restart" your pituitary gland with Human Chorionic Gonadotropin (HCG) mono therapy and the use of anastrozole to control aromatization. Fill out the online questionnaire, get me lab work and a physical and i'll see if my doc's can help you get back on track.
 
I deal with quite quite a few younger guys and we attempt to "restart" your pituitary gland with Human Chorionic Gonadotropin (HCG) mono therapy and the use of anastrozole to control aromatization. Fill out the online questionnaire, get me lab work and a physical and i'll see if my doc's can help you get back on track.

hey chip i have my blood work, is there another way to send you the information without a fax?
 
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