Lol look I know all this. Not even trying to be rude. I understand it's not about getting super swole, in fact I really don't care about that at all. I just want to feel good again. Like I did as a teenager. In fact I could be a 120 lb weakling but if I felt good and confident and super good again like I did when I was younger I would be satisfied. Look, maybe I should just go down the illegal route, but if so, I could really use someone to PM me about this if they have the time. I need advice to do this right, and also how/ where to get this stuff since all my sources are long gone.
Thanks for any help.
What were your testosterone levels as a teen? I'm not going to bullshit you, when I first started TRT (my natural production is barely above 100ng/dL) I was given a very underwhelming dose of 100mg/wk. This put me at about 450ng/dL, and I still felt like shit. It wasn't until my dose increased to the current 250mg/wk that I began to feel like my old self again. I had anxiety, atrophy, obesity, diabetes, hypertension, depression, zero sex drive, zero motivation to do anything, restless leg syndrome, the beginnings of congestive heart failure, subclinical hypothyroidism, adrenal fatigue, and plenty of mental problems that the concoction courtesy of the big pharmaceutical companies drugs provided.
I felt (and feel) normal. Yes, I do have a ravenous sexual appetite that rivals young teen boys, but that's normal for me. I have fixed every single one of those issues with the exception of diabetes (pancreas just gave me the middle finger after a decade of low T) by treating my condition. This is why I DO empathize with folks that are on the lower end of "normal", but you have to also understand that it was a TREMENDOUS battle to get treatment.
Feeling a little depressed and a general sense of malaise *might*be treatable with increasing your testosterone, but wouldn't you want to rule out everything else first? If you haven't had a sleep study, you can't rule that out. Have you had prolactin checked? Vitamin D? Varicoceles?
There are literally countless causes (many idiopathic in nature) as to why you feel like you do. Why sentence yourself to a life on the needle if you don't absolutely need it? TRT is for life, not just for temporary relief, or until you get tired of the constant upkeep. It becomes a necessity in order to live, as you WILL invariably die without testosterone. My life expectancy at my previous test levels was maybe 20 more years, and I was in my early 30's when finally diagnosed. A slow, and pathetic death if you ask me. So why jump so quickly into that boat if it's not 100% needed?
I'm sorry, there simply aren't any methods of temporarily lowering your production temporarily that won't cause you damage to your body. You can try exhausting yourself, but many doctors want multiple tests indicating there's an issue - which may not work every time.
I do wish you the best of luck, and I caution you on seeking underground sources in such an open fashion, it's begging to be scammed.
This was an honest and thought requiring post, I hope you take my words to heart.
My .02c
