Need some advice please guys

[Nitszo]

Guys, lately I have been feeling so depressed..
I cant sleep
been contemplating suicide over and over in my head.. but I don't want to do it.. I haven't even been on a real cycle yet.

I think im just going through a phase, but i jus need some help, I think i need to see a shrink

I suffer from Low Test (170free) & hypothyroidism

The reason I have been getting depressed is because I lack in the skills I need to achieve my goals.
I just cant seem to achieve my goals.. i cut out cardio and lift weights and gain weight..
I am a endomorph so i carry little excess fat.
When i do high intensity cardio i feel sick like im going to vomit, and i always end up really skinny if i try to go for longer periods of time

I lost over 50kg of fat and its left me with loose skin and gyno to some degree.
The loose skin/gyno just feels like its fat but it doesn't go and its very stubborn and stays there.. i can lean down heaps.. but i always end up really skinny and it doesn't look good.

I train with my mate, and he grows and i don't (because i have low test) and i see him growing all the time.. and im just stuck. Strength goes up very slowly.
Even tho my diet is better then his.

I cant do any HIIT for a long period of time.. I did a circut with a PT, and i was so upset with the way i performed i just want curl in a ball.

I am just really lost at the moment.
I know this is a steroid forum, but i know some of you guys must be in a position where gym means life to you.. and when you cant achieve your goals.. and your so dedicated.. what do you do then?

I have never really run any cycles, i did EQ/Primo once and it didn't shut me down.

Doctors wont prescribe me steroids, no matter how hard i try.. being only 20 y/o i know its young to start steroids.. but i have a low test and its almost impossible to see results.
I have been training since i was 16, nearly everyday. I have read everything, google anything thats on my mind, magazines.. you name it.

If you guys were in my position
-Got your diet covered
-Cardio base is horrible
-Low Test
-Low Endurance
-Low self esteem
-Gyno/Stretch marks/Skin
-Doctors wont prescribe you TRT

What would you do?

 

[Misc]

post up your bloodwork.... how old are you?

go to the testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) section and talk to chip. he will be able to get you on testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) if you really need it. if its really gyno then maybe try some letro?... or go see a plastic surgeon to have it removed...

 

[Zero V]

post up your bloodwork.... how old are you?

go to the testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) section and talk to chip. he will be able to get you on testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) if you really need it. if its really gyno then maybe try some letro?... or go see a plastic surgeon to have it removed...

On the gyno part there are several threads across a few forums where people built unique chemical runs that actually wiped out the gyno, or made it physically unnoticeable. I need to find those threads again.

 

[DADAWG]

low test is a common cause of depression . get a doctor to help you bro.

 

[Mr P]

Guys, lately I have been feeling so depressed..
I cant sleep
been contemplating suicide over and over in my head.. but I don't want to do it.. I haven't even been on a real cycle yet.

I think im just going through a phase, but i jus need some help, I think i need to see a shrink

I suffer from Low Test (170free) & hypothyroidism

The reason I have been getting depressed is because I lack in the skills I need to achieve my goals.
I just cant seem to achieve my goals.. i cut out cardio and lift weights and gain weight..
I am a endomorph so i carry little excess fat.
When i do high intensity cardio i feel sick like im going to vomit, and i always end up really skinny if i try to go for longer periods of time

I lost over 50kg of fat and its left me with loose skin and gyno to some degree.
The loose skin/gyno just feels like its fat but it doesn't go and its very stubborn and stays there.. i can lean down heaps.. but i always end up really skinny and it doesn't look good.

I train with my mate, and he grows and i don't (because i have low test) and i see him growing all the time.. and im just stuck. Strength goes up very slowly.
Even tho my diet is better then his.

I cant do any HIIT for a long period of time.. I did a circut with a PT, and i was so upset with the way i performed i just want curl in a ball.

I am just really lost at the moment.
I know this is a steroid forum, but i know some of you guys must be in a position where gym means life to you.. and when you cant achieve your goals.. and your so dedicated.. what do you do then?

I have never really run any cycles, i did EQ/Primo once and it didn't shut me down.

Doctors wont prescribe me steroids, no matter how hard i try.. being only 20 y/o i know its young to start steroids.. but i have a low test and its almost impossible to see results.
I have been training since i was 16, nearly everyday. I have read everything, google anything thats on my mind, magazines.. you name it.

If you guys were in my position
-Got your diet covered
-Cardio base is horrible
-Low Test
-Low Endurance
-Low self esteem
-Gyno/Stretch marks/Skin
-Doctors wont prescribe you TRT

What would you do?

I suggest you go see a doctor, low test symptoms are: fatigue, a decreased sex drive, and irritability.
and it has been linked to depression.

Depression can really mess you up Bro, I would go see a doctor, you might need to take anti-depressant meds, this will help you with your mood, mental stability and you will feel better overall.

Good luck man.