kaname
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They trying to break me mentally man. I'm slowing thinking maybe I should start my bulking cycle. Hell I'm even to the point where I'm thinking about blasting and cruising for a little while (32 years old). Fuark man.
If one more co-worker calls me skinny! At my heaviest weight last year I was 261 lbs at 6'0. Decided to stop cycling (been just a bit over a year now...stopped towards the end of last year).
Doing my thing cutting down naturally (gained a lot of fat doing the dirty bulk thing). So decided to bring it down. I'm at 210 lbs now. I figured at about 200 lbs I would start the bulk (clean), but geez man I hardly can take it.
If it wasn't enough that my co-workers keep commenting on how "skinny" I am, even cats on the street are sizing me up differently. **Most know what I do as a career, I know some distrust me for it, but it is what it is** This part is hard to explain but it's a clear difference between the response I get now by whatever idiot running off at the mouth compared to just a year ago. I'm still happy to hand out some act right, but truth be told I would prefer the talk things out route. It's like these past 2 weeks have been insane. Idiots just not listening anymore. I've had what 3 fights in the past week alone. Officer presence goes a long way when you have the size to go along with it. Hell now that I here myself I'm almost starting to think I am skinny. I'm not even skinny, I have decent size on me. WTF man, these hippies, fuarking with my mind. I'm honestly worried about what I will look / feel like at 200 lbs.
Waiting on my order from PSL go come in. Figured I'd start it when I was down to where I wanted to be, but now man I kind of think I'm starting as soon as it comes in. Which I don't even know how I'm going to explain to my coach the sudden weight gain.
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If one more co-worker calls me skinny! At my heaviest weight last year I was 261 lbs at 6'0. Decided to stop cycling (been just a bit over a year now...stopped towards the end of last year).
Doing my thing cutting down naturally (gained a lot of fat doing the dirty bulk thing). So decided to bring it down. I'm at 210 lbs now. I figured at about 200 lbs I would start the bulk (clean), but geez man I hardly can take it.
If it wasn't enough that my co-workers keep commenting on how "skinny" I am, even cats on the street are sizing me up differently. **Most know what I do as a career, I know some distrust me for it, but it is what it is** This part is hard to explain but it's a clear difference between the response I get now by whatever idiot running off at the mouth compared to just a year ago. I'm still happy to hand out some act right, but truth be told I would prefer the talk things out route. It's like these past 2 weeks have been insane. Idiots just not listening anymore. I've had what 3 fights in the past week alone. Officer presence goes a long way when you have the size to go along with it. Hell now that I here myself I'm almost starting to think I am skinny. I'm not even skinny, I have decent size on me. WTF man, these hippies, fuarking with my mind. I'm honestly worried about what I will look / feel like at 200 lbs.
Waiting on my order from PSL go come in. Figured I'd start it when I was down to where I wanted to be, but now man I kind of think I'm starting as soon as it comes in. Which I don't even know how I'm going to explain to my coach the sudden weight gain.
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