I've browsed through the forum and read several "beginner's cycle" type threads - but I feel like they are aimed at a more "hardcore" goal than I am trying to achieve and I don't want to play around with any more chemicals. I really just need some advice from someone who knows about steroids and how to introduce them into my body without throwing off my body's natural production of hormones, etc.
Basically I lost a major modeling gig two years ago because I couldn't gain any mass and ended up dipping from the agency out of frustration. (I knew that some of the other models were using steroids, but at the time I thought I just wasn't trying hard enough at the gym or that my diet wasn't right for my metabolism. So I never asked anyone for help.)
So I ended up working another job and met a co-worker who began using steroids, etc. but he was already built before he started his first cycle, so I never thought it would be something that would work for me. This co-worker ended up switching jobs but we've kept in touch.
I recently had a bad break-up and this past Monday something snapped in me and I decided that I would do whatever it took to gain mass and become comfortable in my own skin. So I called this co-worker and said something like "help me buy steroids" or something along those lines.
He gave me testosterone-ethanate and told me to inject 1cc on the same day at the same time for 4 weeks. He then started listing all of these supplements and counter-effecting drugs that I would need but we were both short on time and I basically took away "take 1000mg of fish oil a day and get Novadex."
So I bought the fish oil and opted to buy "Erase Pro" from GNC instead of Novadex because I thought that I was supposed to take an e-blocker during my cycle, not after, and he mentioned Novadex taking a long time to ship.
Thus far, I'm on day 5 of just the testosterone and fish oil (plus creatine just to help gain mass) and I've gained 5 lbs which is incredible given my weight history, but my body is gaining mass so quickly I feel like it's all a dream.
Regardless of my reckless decision to dive into something that I know nothing about and that could permanently damage my body. I don't want to lose what I've gained and I want to keep going and maintain my physique BUT I need to no what I should be taking and for how long and how to accomplish my goal safely.
A little about my genetics:
All of the men in my family are around 6" and thin. I'm 5"11' and I always ate whatever I wanted and my weight would never budge from 135lbs. The only time my weight changed from diet and exercise was when I began taking creatine and going to the gym everyday - seven days a week - for three months plus every weekday I would get a "Hulk" from Smoothie King. Yes, I got toned. But I did not gain ANY size and I gained 2lbs.... that's right... 32 big ole ounces!
My goal isn't to look like a perfectly cut fitness model. I just want to gain muscle and most importantly, mass (especially in my chest, thighs, and butt.)
So my main concerns right now are 1.) What do I need to be taking RIGHT NOW with the testosterone and 2.) What do I need to take after the testosterone to rebalance my body and maintain my mass.
Thanks in advance for any tips!
Basically I lost a major modeling gig two years ago because I couldn't gain any mass and ended up dipping from the agency out of frustration. (I knew that some of the other models were using steroids, but at the time I thought I just wasn't trying hard enough at the gym or that my diet wasn't right for my metabolism. So I never asked anyone for help.)
So I ended up working another job and met a co-worker who began using steroids, etc. but he was already built before he started his first cycle, so I never thought it would be something that would work for me. This co-worker ended up switching jobs but we've kept in touch.
I recently had a bad break-up and this past Monday something snapped in me and I decided that I would do whatever it took to gain mass and become comfortable in my own skin. So I called this co-worker and said something like "help me buy steroids" or something along those lines.
He gave me testosterone-ethanate and told me to inject 1cc on the same day at the same time for 4 weeks. He then started listing all of these supplements and counter-effecting drugs that I would need but we were both short on time and I basically took away "take 1000mg of fish oil a day and get Novadex."
So I bought the fish oil and opted to buy "Erase Pro" from GNC instead of Novadex because I thought that I was supposed to take an e-blocker during my cycle, not after, and he mentioned Novadex taking a long time to ship.
Thus far, I'm on day 5 of just the testosterone and fish oil (plus creatine just to help gain mass) and I've gained 5 lbs which is incredible given my weight history, but my body is gaining mass so quickly I feel like it's all a dream.
Regardless of my reckless decision to dive into something that I know nothing about and that could permanently damage my body. I don't want to lose what I've gained and I want to keep going and maintain my physique BUT I need to no what I should be taking and for how long and how to accomplish my goal safely.
A little about my genetics:
All of the men in my family are around 6" and thin. I'm 5"11' and I always ate whatever I wanted and my weight would never budge from 135lbs. The only time my weight changed from diet and exercise was when I began taking creatine and going to the gym everyday - seven days a week - for three months plus every weekday I would get a "Hulk" from Smoothie King. Yes, I got toned. But I did not gain ANY size and I gained 2lbs.... that's right... 32 big ole ounces!
My goal isn't to look like a perfectly cut fitness model. I just want to gain muscle and most importantly, mass (especially in my chest, thighs, and butt.)
So my main concerns right now are 1.) What do I need to be taking RIGHT NOW with the testosterone and 2.) What do I need to take after the testosterone to rebalance my body and maintain my mass.
Thanks in advance for any tips!
