Soo, I am new to the forum and I'd like to know if I should think about TRT. First my "story". I grew up obese untill 16 and then decided to go on a diet. I was 5'7 and 240 pounds of fatness. I went on a crash diet for 4 months and lost ~90 pounds reaching a state of skinnyfat. I knew nothing about nutrition and blindly followed a diet called dukan which is a low-fat diet. I had days of less than 500 calories of food.
One year later I decided I still look bad and started going to the gym 4-5 days a week and bulking. My strength gains were subpar, I still can't bench 120 pounds at a bw of 175 and I look pretty much the same except fatter. I started feeling tired, weak and apathetic towards most things during the diet and after but still had some motivation to go the gym, whatever it takes, right? mind over matter? oh well.
I now feel nothing? (not trying to be edgy or something but I feel apathetic), tired most of the time (especially afternoon), my gym progress was and is really low despite a relatively good training method and nutrition (Atleast I think so, -I calculate all my food intake on MFP, have been eating atleast 1lb protein/bw for a year, doing a bb split after my strength gains on SS stopped.) No motivation to go out with friends and moody like a little bitch. I am not depressed, I think I am not atleast, not bad thoughts and stuff like that. This is not that important tho, ever since the diet I stopped seeing girls like sexual objects? I look at pretty ones as art and don't feel attracted to none and I am not gay neither. My sexual drive is nonexistent. I can get a boner but it's hard (pun intended) to do it, not sure if I still have morning wood, it happens only when I wake up needing to pee.
Looked on the internet for these symptoms and saw something testosterone related but I didn't give it many thoughts since I am 18 and not fat and doing stuff the right way? I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, eat a lot of "bad" food, sleep right (not that right lately, have been having sleeping problems since the blood test) and go to the gym constantly. Anyway, I had a general blood test and decided to add in Free Testosterone and Total testosterone alongside usual things and thyroid.
Everything came right, PERFECT, actually. Except my testosterone. The results were "in range" but what range? range of a woman? My total testosterone was 400ng/ml in a 160-700 laboratory range which is in range but still lowish. My free testosterone was even worse, 4.4pg/ml (yes, four) in a 4-40 laboratory range.
I think the lab ranges are bad where I took since I found info online how 12 years old girls have <5pg/ml free testosterone.
Now I became a bit obsessed with this and have been researching everything about it finding how being obese and/or starvation crash diets cause secondary hypogonadism. My thyroid is fine, everything else is. Doctors think it's all in my mind and don't want to entertain my observation on hypogonadism.
What should I do? seek out other endocrinologists? stop thinking about it and live like this? Those levels are after sleeping 8h+ a night, supplementing vitamin D3,ZMA and fish oil and a high fat diet. I really started thinking about TRT but I don't know if its the right thing at this age despite it might be what will fix me..
I know exogenous testosterone will shutdown my own productions and cause testicular atrophy and other minor problems but the benefits seem to outweigh the detriments. I want to be attracted to girls again like I used to when I was obese but couldn't get a girlfriend because of being obese, now I can get one but I don't feel the need to. And I am not going to hide my reasons away. I want muscle and strength gains. I want to be big and my body is not doing that right seeing NO progress after 1 year and a few months of training. Sorry for the long blog post and my poor english.
One year later I decided I still look bad and started going to the gym 4-5 days a week and bulking. My strength gains were subpar, I still can't bench 120 pounds at a bw of 175 and I look pretty much the same except fatter. I started feeling tired, weak and apathetic towards most things during the diet and after but still had some motivation to go the gym, whatever it takes, right? mind over matter? oh well.
I now feel nothing? (not trying to be edgy or something but I feel apathetic), tired most of the time (especially afternoon), my gym progress was and is really low despite a relatively good training method and nutrition (Atleast I think so, -I calculate all my food intake on MFP, have been eating atleast 1lb protein/bw for a year, doing a bb split after my strength gains on SS stopped.) No motivation to go out with friends and moody like a little bitch. I am not depressed, I think I am not atleast, not bad thoughts and stuff like that. This is not that important tho, ever since the diet I stopped seeing girls like sexual objects? I look at pretty ones as art and don't feel attracted to none and I am not gay neither. My sexual drive is nonexistent. I can get a boner but it's hard (pun intended) to do it, not sure if I still have morning wood, it happens only when I wake up needing to pee.
Looked on the internet for these symptoms and saw something testosterone related but I didn't give it many thoughts since I am 18 and not fat and doing stuff the right way? I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, eat a lot of "bad" food, sleep right (not that right lately, have been having sleeping problems since the blood test) and go to the gym constantly. Anyway, I had a general blood test and decided to add in Free Testosterone and Total testosterone alongside usual things and thyroid.
Everything came right, PERFECT, actually. Except my testosterone. The results were "in range" but what range? range of a woman? My total testosterone was 400ng/ml in a 160-700 laboratory range which is in range but still lowish. My free testosterone was even worse, 4.4pg/ml (yes, four) in a 4-40 laboratory range.
I think the lab ranges are bad where I took since I found info online how 12 years old girls have <5pg/ml free testosterone.
Now I became a bit obsessed with this and have been researching everything about it finding how being obese and/or starvation crash diets cause secondary hypogonadism. My thyroid is fine, everything else is. Doctors think it's all in my mind and don't want to entertain my observation on hypogonadism.
What should I do? seek out other endocrinologists? stop thinking about it and live like this? Those levels are after sleeping 8h+ a night, supplementing vitamin D3,ZMA and fish oil and a high fat diet. I really started thinking about TRT but I don't know if its the right thing at this age despite it might be what will fix me..
I know exogenous testosterone will shutdown my own productions and cause testicular atrophy and other minor problems but the benefits seem to outweigh the detriments. I want to be attracted to girls again like I used to when I was obese but couldn't get a girlfriend because of being obese, now I can get one but I don't feel the need to. And I am not going to hide my reasons away. I want muscle and strength gains. I want to be big and my body is not doing that right seeing NO progress after 1 year and a few months of training. Sorry for the long blog post and my poor english.