i see where youre going bro, and youre probably right. to answer your questions: i do not gain easily. my first cycle was sustanon and decca. started with 250 and 50 and raised it to 500 and 100 after a few weeks. i went from 65 kilos to 92 or so. what did i lose post cycle? that is the fucked up part. i kept just about all of it bro, i bloated a little but not much. so i probably lost about 3 kilos or so. i was hovering at 90. very lean although i dont know the number because i never measured the bf. the problem came after two months. i got a bad pulmonary infection and literally wasted away in about a months time. i ended up around 60 kilos. after i recovered i started training naturally and went back up to 82 kilos within a year. after that it got near impossible to gain lean muscle mass. im at 85 now, but theres alot more fat in there than i am willing to accept. i had a back injury about 5 or 6 months ago and that has hindered my training but im about good. i want to reach 95 and be lean but i see your point. i will probably have to reach my goal in two or three cycles instead. 10 kilos doesnt seem like much but when you convert that to pounds, it sure does seem like im smoking some good shit to expect to get to 95 and be lean from where im at now. in one cycle too. thats what i like about this forum. sometimes you set goals that may be a little out of your reach and its good to have bros who are willing to point out a couple of things you didnt consider or overlooked. thanks alot bro. im still gonna go for it though. i hate changing my mind after i start something. if i dont quite get there, fuck it. theres always next cycle and the experience will be good. i just dont see the point of bulking to the point where you are carrying alot of fat just to do a cutting cycle afterwards. i understand the concept but i just think thats alot more discipline than i want to be having in this point in my life. i am most concerned with staying fit and increasing my endurance and strength. the weight gain i guess is important but secondary. sorry for the long ass post. i appreciate the comments. later.