Ok, look bro, first read my post in this topic if you wish
http://www.steroidology.com/forum/a...3-chances-recovering-after-24-week-cycle.html
Also, theres no such thing as "I really dont wannt get huge" - Not sure wat you mean by huge, but from what i understand its a physique that is only achievable after a while of abusing steroids all year along with some other stuff.
Also, theres no such thing as "i'll just run a cycle or 2" - People keep taking steroids for years without much change, because after each cycle (excluding the first one where you might keep like 10-50% of your gains depending on how you close you were to your natural genetic limit), you WILL lose pretty much ALL your gains.
One more thing, after the age of 30, testosterone levels are already down a bit and you should be on TRT so why not just start your own "TRT" now ? Then you can B/C, not worry about PCT, low libido, losing gains n stuff like that?
Ok, no matter what you decide, i dont reccommend starting ANY cycle with high bodyfat you should just diet down to like 10-12% AT LEAST or lower if you can before starting for a few reasons:
1- It will help you NOT lose so much gains after you decide to cut down.
2- It will help your cutting process a lot easier.
3- It will help with side effects you might have (like gino).
4- It will help with your recovery on PCT.
5- It will help you make better use of the testosterone you inject, since you will convert less testosterone into estradiol.
6- It will help you save money because you will have to use less AIs like anastrozole and tamoxifen and also less PCT stuff because your recovery will be faster.
Because fat cells have an enzyme called aromatase, which converts testosterone into estradiol (female hormone), meaning that the more fat you have, the more u'll convert test into estradiol. Also estradiol helps to decrease the production of testosterone.
All this = the fatter you are, the fatter you will get lol. It sucks but its true. It is easier for a lean man to recover from a cycle than a man with 15%+ bodyfat.
To make it even clearer:
High Bodyfat = More Test converted into Estradiol = Higher levels of Estradiol decreases Testosterone production = More female features (gyno) and less male ones = More fat gains and muscle loss = Higher bodyfat = Starts this eternal cycle again until you are just a huge ball of fat with a complete shut down hypothalamus from the extremely high levels of estradiol or until you diet down.