My husband began dabbling with test in January. His friend supplied him but he doesn't even know the specifics. I grew up in NJ so have many friends on gear. He is from Eastern Europe , 32, never touched it before and not popular where he lived. My once loving husband became a total nightmare with zero impulse control. From using drugs recreationally to now cheating on me. He has a job where he travels a lot - we are newlyweds. He has screamed at me so badly our animals are terrified of him. Over the food not being cooked fast enough he was in my face like a rabid dog (I'm 4'11" so I was terrified my jacked husband just going to knock me out ((he's never done that)) He became insanely paranoid I was cheating. He began to slap me across the face and ask if I was cheating and become very aggressive in bedroom it borderline anal rape. He is a monster. I do not even care about what he looks like. I'm 33 look 23 and work in nightlife industry til 30 - I still look good and we have amazing sex life- he says I'm best he's had. (For those wondering if I wasn't satisfying him) When I found out he cheated, he said he was convinced I was cheating. When in town he has ran out of the house to catch me with somebody but I literally was getting jug of water from gas station. He has driven to my job like a maniac to try to catch me with somebody. Safe to say, I think whatever he was on ***ned our marriage. I know RAD 140 was one of them and another was test. I know he grew up with a dad whose job was to beat people so of course he is a little crazy. But on this shit total nightmare. I am looking for insight into male mind when on these things and their side effects. He has completely quit now but the trust is gone. He blames me but said I wasn't "loving enough" while he was gone. It's very hard to be loving when you're called a cunt, gypsy, whore, scum etc when you are just waiting for your husband to come home. Has anyone ever had terrible reactions? I know he probably reckless with dosing he was HUGE (not attractive to me) big swollen face swollen arms .. so possibly was taking way too much? Should I get his blood levels tested? Any feedback would be great