it feels like im fucked up for good

[Sadasius]

Delete my account! Tried to but cannot and since my last post was moderated all of a sudden I do not want to be here.

 

[Mad- scientist]

Dude pct can suck a lot I know how you feel. Lol I look at pct like I took a whole bunch of shrooms and that any of the thoughts I have are not real and are caused by the drug. Basically that all those sad feelings you get when coming down off steroids are all because you are coming down of steroids. Its not how you really feel. But all those emotions can be tricky it will dig up things that have always bothered you and amplify them and make it feel like it is how you really feel. When I was 19 I ran superdroll , halodrol, and tren they where all pro hormones and I felt like total shit when I went on pct so after 4 day I went and bought 250 dollars worth of more pro hormones so could just feel better and I took 1ad and 4ad and tren again all where pro hormones. And when I was done with all of them I had the worst fucking pct of my life. Me and my girlfriend had broke up at the time I had just got a new job where no on came in all day long and it was just me in there alone for 8 hours and maybe 6 customers would come through day. So trust me I was fucking depressed as hell. And really the only thing that made it better was trying to remember I felt that way because of all the substances put in my body and it was all a trick on my mind. I felt better after 2 months. But it was a long road. And still to this day I think about how shitty those 2 months where. All you can do is wait it out. And try to do things like go and see movies, go hang out with friends, and just do not think about the whole situation unless you have to for the sake of re dosing pct products or something important. Really what you need right now man is called mental endurance. You need to just realize you are almost over the hard part and that you more than likely did not fuck your self up for life. Your test level may be low for a while but im sure you can get them back up to normal with time and a doctor. But most of all man focus on happy things you cant start watching sad movies and thinking depressing thoughts it will make shit worse man. Just make sure you think positive all day long even if you don't want to. Just don't think negative at all. You are doing every thing you can to make things better so there Is no need to think about stressful shit. And remember all the fucked up thoughts are just because of your hormones being off they will go back to normal so remember that when you start thinking fucked up thoughts that make you think suicidal.

 

[Magical]

Good luck

 

[clman8585]

Everyone must be different. I'm still shutdown 11weeks after my cycle and I feel great, am tossin around heavy ass weights, have great energy, and bust decent size nuts. The only negative of being sgutdown is I get a little anxious, but I have a lot of shit goin on right now in my life right now so thats excusable, anywaus...no big deal. Open a can of man, and suck it the fuck up. Good luck dude!!!

 

[clman8585]

Lh and fsh both <.2 and test is 310. I don't meen to be harsh, but if I can deal with it so can you. If not, it doesn't seem like you are cut out for the wonderfull world of aas, at least you'll live to learn from your mistake.

 

[Mad- scientist]

lol mines still 413 for total testosterone. But I put on good size really quick and have decent libido so fuck it. Ill fix it after I run another cycle. Lol my post cycle therapy (pct) will be my restart to. I can already see I have the wrong attitude about that. And I will read this post in like 6 months and want to choke myself. That's why I always say having knowledge about something isn't enough you have to follow that knowledge.

 

[Frank White]

Your 20 years old? Here comes my daddy speech again! Anyway, look in the mirror and marvel at what you have built....then go to the gym and train some more. Take a shower, spray on some Axe, and go find a pussy to pound. Doesn't work for everyone but sure works for me. Good luck kiddo!

 

[Lad]

Great replies! Combination of the mad-scientist's understanding of where those feelings originate(hormone levels) and clman8585's suck it up attitude will go along way! Hang in there! You'll be fine! This activity may not suit you!

 

[ontopthegame85]

Run mega doses of tong kat ali,tribulus,zma,d Sparic acid it will get you back to normal in no time.

 

[P4P4_D]

agreed.

estrogen would not be high because what its converting from "ie test" is also low. no need for Aromatase inhibitor (AI) in post cycle therapy (pct) imo

But doesn't the estrogen during cycle still stay in the bloodstream? Just cause you stopped injecting doesn't necessarily mean the estrogen in gone.
With nolvadex all it's doing is blocking the receptor. So once post cycle therapy (pct) is over estrogen starts to bind to them. Correct me if I'm wrong