You have my sympathies man.
It's downright irresponsible and IDIOTIC to request a hypogonadal male with a case history PROVING such to go back to such levels. I've had the discussion with more than one endocrinologist about this and no matter how hard they try to cajole me into letting them make me into their science experiment, I flatly refuse and present them with the fact that even if I didn't need TRT to begin with, after being on for an extended period of time, I would likely exhibit secondary hypogonadism regardless due to how the negative feedback loop functions.
Changed docs for my type II diabetes; did they ask me to stop my drugs so they could see a pretty 500mg/dL blood glucose or HbA1C of 9? Nope. She simply wanted current readings and asked if I wanted to adjust my insulin doses as I'm fighting for an optimal hormone profile in all arenas. Talk about the dreaded testosterone though, and we're right back to the silly base-line horse puckey.
You're a stronger man than I am Cobra. I spent a decade being hypogonadal, and will
never go back. Ever. I wish you a speedy process and that they don't pull any more crap on you as you are trying to seek help with your quality of life.
My .02c