akol, read around here...
A lot of people use steroids (and the iron work) to self treat their depression, anxiety, lack of drive and energy. The same way, like behind mostly every alcohol addiction their is some sort of anxiety and depressive disorder. So you would just replace one drug abuse with another.
My personal suggestion is, to first come close to your genetic limits. Good training and nutrion, consistently over years, no matter what your career or privat live is doing. Bosses and partners might come and go, your training and nutrion must stay. THEN you can decide wether you want to push the limits or not. Then you have learned enough about your own body and how it reacts to various training and diet regimes. Only then you can get full benefit from steriods, meaning getting the most out of it. There will be side effects, the question is, how much positive effects can you squeeze out? You would not want to have sides and only a mediocre result.
But that is all ahead of your time right now. You have not even recovered from your current addiction. If you speek of devotion to that lifestyle yes... I can understand this. That's why I think true devotion does not need enhancement. True devotion will give you enough motivation to stick to that lifestyle and give you good gains, making you even more devoted to chicken breast, brown rice and iron. (;
When you reach your limits, you can still decide, if you want more or if you can settle with it. But first recover.