You're obviously gonna do what you wanna do and honestly I don't really give a shit! But I feel obliged to share a few things with you because I know you are young and you're definetely not being received very well on here!..Keep in mind you're on a forum where most of us who share here live a bodybuilding lifestyle. There's a lot of hard work that goes into that. If your results are almost completely dependent on steroids then a. you're not eating, training, and resting properly and b. you're going to lose ALL of your gains the moment those chemicals leave your body. When one decides they want to build a muscular physique there are steps one should take. The first step should be developing a consistent lifiting routine and diet. You didn't give youself any time to get familiar with bodybuilding and gain some good knowledge...and believe me it WILL show! Maybe some people do exaggerate the sides of aas, but that's not to say they don't exist, ESPECIALLY if you don't know what you're doing..I've seen people really fuck themselves up. Also, I personally think it can be beneficial to have an idol. I idolized Arnold for a long time and in certain ways still do, but you wanna be careful who you look up to. I don't know much about this Zyzz guy, but I do know that healthy guys in there 20's don't just drop dead in a sauna. No one REALLY knows what the hell he was taking except for him. Point is, he clearly wasn't healthy! So keep in mind you're trying to follow the path of someone who had a very short ride...Last thing I'd like to say is that almost all of the weight that you're putting on right now is fat and water. All you're doing is taking in a massive excess in calories from the weight gainer and you're body's storing all the unused calories as fat. And you're obviously retaining water from the d-bol as well, but you'll piss that right out when you stop taking it. I'd be careful how much fat I was gaining because it's unhealthy and doesn't look good, plus you can get stretch marks from gaining weight too quickly. You should take the time to figure out how many calories you need to maintain and add 500 to that. The rest is a waste and will make you look like shit. Hopefully you get something outta this post. Good luck!