My story is kind of long so bare with me. I had a surgery on July 1,2013 on the back of my head. They put a small implant in which later got infected. My skull ( back part) became infected which is what they call osteomyelitis. I spent over a year on daily IV antibiotics and another 6 months of oral antibiotics once I was done with my IV's. On top of everything I was going through I developed severe depression and was put on several antidepressants, because of my fear of ever getting it again because of what I read online and the horror stories about it and how people lose limbs. Due to the depression I lost nearly 60 lbs. and almost took my life. Ive been off antibiotics for months now and am ready to go back because it was my passion to transform myself. Ive been cleared by doctors but still theres that fear in me everytime I drive by my gym, I get the flashback of going to the hospital everyday and the stories I read online.