I started gear at 20 and now i am bashing myself

[Black Beard]

I am now 21, been on for about a year

only took a 2 month break, decided to blast and cruise

now i am coming off finally after good advice from our vets


i know what i did was stupid, and i can't stop bashing myself. I know whats done is done, but i keep telling myself i should have stayed natural, i would have lived longer, i would have had high natural test still and so on.

Maybe its all the hormones dropping in my system since i am no longer pinning


but i am dying mentally, i keep bashing myself for my past decisions and i don't know what to do


any tips?

Honestly sounds like high estro, with a little bit of OCD.

 

[DipKing]

Panda the best thing you can do for yourself is lay off the anabolics for now and grow up a little. And I didn't mean that comment to be harsh. You're in your early 20s still. You need to figure out what your calling in life is and give yourself a firm foundation before you go and make permanent alterations to it. Get a degree or nice job and make some dough, stay away from negative influences and just try to refine yourself into a man. I'm sure in a year or so you'll feel completely different.

 

[mr.bean]

using aas under 24 is stupid IMO

 

[BoBoy]

using aas under 24 is stupid IMO

No , using AAS and not getting bloods is stupid , we've tried to talk to Sad Panda before about monitoring himself but he wouldnt listen , now he doesnt know which way is up .
GET BLOODTESTS PANDA !!

 

[imdennis]

panda is not the brightest one, would say out of everyone on this site, he makes aas users look stupid. all his posts are about him complaining, when he gets advice he doesn't take it, kid is an idiot. let him do what he wants, save your time and energy panda and just dont post about your life.

 

[sadpanda]

No , using AAS and not getting bloods is stupid , we've tried to talk to Sad Panda before about monitoring himself but he wouldnt listen , now he doesnt know which way is up .
GET BLOODTESTS PANDA !!

lol what are you even talking about...
i don't recall you posting in any of my threads lol :S

buaahahah oh panda, you never learn

lol dennis... that awkward moment when your my age... and on "TRT"


not sure why you saying i've never learned...

or why you even criticize me lol


i'm taking all the advice i have recieved and stopping

 

[imdennis]

lol what are you even talking about...
i don't recall you posting in any of my threads lol :S



lol dennis... that awkward moment when your my age... and on "TRT"


not sure why you saying i've never learned...

or why you even criticize me lol


i'm taking all the advice i have recieved and stopping

i was on trt before i even touched ph and juice :S, all the advice you take comes in through one ear and out the other.... we all told you this in your posts months ago and u went against our words and here you are....

 

[BoBoy]

i was on trt before i even touched ph and juice :S, all the advice you take comes in through one ear and out the other.... we all told you this in your posts months ago and u went against our words and here you are....

He doesnt remember me posting in his threads (which I've done dozens of times, remember when mommy found your gear ?) so I suspect hes on other drugs too......

 

[halfwit]

i was on trt before i even touched ph and juice :S, all the advice you take comes in through one ear and out the other.... we all told you this in your posts months ago and u went against our words and here you are....

WTF??!

DENNIS??!

Should I start looking outside for the Four Horsemen as the Apocalypse has most certainly arrived?

Best of luck Panda. The good news is that you still have MANY years ahead of you dude, don't sweat the small shit. Focus on your future; that's what matters.

 

[imdennis]

He doesnt remember me posting in his threads (which I've done dozens of times, remember when mommy found your gear ?) so I suspect hes on other drugs too......

i remember all his posts, starting to suspect that him and toco are related.

 

[imdennis]

WTF??!

DENNIS??!

Should I start looking outside for the Four Horsemen as the Apocalypse has most certainly arrived?

Best of luck Panda. The good news is that you still have MANY years ahead of you dude, don't sweat the small shit. Focus on your future; that's what matters.

im kickin ass and taking names.

 

[Mad- scientist]

We have all tried to help you sad panda. I suggest you keep your post's more orientated towards facts and stay on subjects we can really help you on. When you bring how you feel about your decisions you have made into the forum and are upset it really sets you up to be a target for people flaming you.

I'll remind every one again to keep the flaming down and to try to just post helpful info. But their is only so much I can say to people when you make a thread like this. For your own sake Sad panda I recommend you just start threads about things that we can actually help you on like PCT protocols and how to read blood work and stuff related to that.

It is just when you make threads about your mom finding your gear. And threads about being depressed about coming off of steroids and looking at possibly having to go on TRT for the rest of your life when every one warned you to stop. You really are just asking for people to fuck with you. I think personally if you cant do a successful restart on your own with a longer PCT and blood work. I think you need to go see a doctor who specializes in hormone therapy for a last try to get your HPTA system back on line and functioning.

 

[casperthefriendly]

There's no sense in dwelling on your mistakes, Sadpanda. What's done is done. Mad-Scientist just gave you some great advice. Do your PCT, get some blood work done, and move on from there.