Today
Need a total carb up day
Matt, when was the last time you donated blood? You're almost constantly red in your pics, which can be caused by high hematocrit, as red blood cell accumulation can be noticeable near the surface of your skin. As far as your female problems, I'm just going to say that you need to do a few things:
1. Learn to control your anger, don't let it control you. I COMPLETELY understand the amount of rage one goes through in that kind of situation, but going to jail isn't going to help you rejoin your daughter. Think about custody hearings in the future; any records showing you have anger issues will DESTROY your chances of having an unbiased meeting.
2. Think about the direction of your life. I don't remember what you're doing now for work, but try to focus on a
sustainable and lucrative future. This will help you become a better father as you want to be there for your daughter both physically and financially.
3. Take a break from the madness. It's FANTASTIC that you're still focused on the gym as that will help you with #1. I often joke (people don't think I'm serious at least) that the gym has helped some folks stay out of the ground. It's actually true, as I do have quite the temper, but being able to ball all that rage up and spend it in one place keeps me cool. The problem is that hormones (especially tren) make things MUCH harder to control; it's not that there's any credence to 'roid rage', but that hormones
do amplify what we're feeling. This is a
bad thing when we're facing a crisis situation that we're heavily emotionally involved in. Perhaps it's time to cruise on your testosterone only so you can regain some perspective.
4. Remember that it's all about your child. Forget about your personal relationship with your ex, forget about men being over, forget about EVERYTHING but your little one. She is the one that will pay the ultimate price in all this, which is a tragedy if you allow it to be so. We men tend to make snap decisions that tend to carry heavy consequences, this is not the time to do so - pick yourself back up, put yourself back together, and move forward as best as you can. She will respect you and thank you for this later in life, I promise.
I hope some of this makes sense, as I've seen too many guys go onto a path of self-destruction when they didn't need to.
My .02c
