So depressed, not sure what it is.

[angryjonny]

I don't know if it is because it's winter, or because I haven't taken any valium recently and i'm in withdrawal. I rarely have an appetite for food anymore, i feel so depressed and sad, like in the back of my head it's the worst i've ever felt it, extremely depressed and suicidal.

I've been on t injections for a month or two. 100mg every week injected into my quad.

My doc didn't know anything about hcg or anything else so all I have is the T. My face has also been breaking out which just adds even more crap I gotta deal with.

They just wanna throw prozac at me, but I don't wanna just hide the problem. Can T injections do this to my body? Any ideas?

Thanks.

 

[joliver]

It may be the valium withdrawal. It seems to be the general consensus that testosterone with appropriate E2 management makes a person's outlook on life more favorable.

 

[corvettels3]

How long were you on valium? Benzo withdrawal is pure hell if not done correctly. If you quit cold turkey you going to have a very hard road in front of you. I've been through it twice. One cold turkey when I did not know any better at the time. The second time I used valium for the taper. I was coming off temazepam. You might want to get back on and start a very slow taper. check out benzobuddies for more info. Good luck brother..

 

[angryjonny]

i tried a taper failed, and then lost my insurance, so i've been using the same dose every other day for 6 months since I havent found a doc to work with me on a taper yet, i have insurance now i'm working again. maybe I need to increase the dose and then try to taper off again slower.

thanks

 

[Inhuman2012]

Benzo and alcohol withdrawal are the two most dangerous withdrawals in the world of detox.

 

[angryjonny]

Benzo and alcohol withdrawal are the two most dangerous withdrawals in the world of detox.

if that's what this is, i'm hoping that's all it is. then I agree. I've never been so suicidal and depressed it's nuts, glad I got my lil girl to give me a reason to get through it.

I took a valium and the depression has completely lifted for now, i'll try an find a doc to help me out.

 

[Alpin]

get blood labs done ASAP to rule out E2...
if E2 is out of whack....
that's when the sides happen for me.
usually the culprit is the HCG(if not spaced E3D or E4D) or taking mega shots of T every week, also crashing E2 with too much AI is horrible.

 

[LetsGoHeavyBro]

Hang in there jonnny.. You wil get through it.. And if the depression continues please seek professional help..

 

[cave62]

Just try to stay positive, things will get better, they always do. I've been off methadone and norco for three weeks now after being on them for 13 months and in the first week and 1/2 I felt like total garbage, I will admit to having suicidal thoughts too. Just think of your friends and loved ones or even talk to them, trust me talking does help. How are you feeling now? Who cares if you need to be on prozac or any other anti-depressent or anxiety drug, half the people I know including myself are on something, I'm on celexa life in general can be stressful. It's just an imbalance just like TRT, nothing to be ashamed of.

 

[hunnster]

Hang in there! I've had bad withdrawals from benzos, didn't sleep for a few days. Things always get better, believe it! If you continue to feel like this do not hesitate do go seek help, it is not ok to feel like crap. Take care of yourself and remember there is always something good in life and things get better.

 

[JOWS7]

Hang in there buddy. You have a ton of things going on that could contribute to your depression: low testosterone (I'm assuming since you are on TRT), probably high estradiol, benzo withdrawal and winter does have a "downer" affect. If you are breaking out you could have sky high DHT values. Do you have any lab values to report?

Again, hang in there bud! Check out bignoknow on youtube. He has a lot of interesting videos on TRT, depression and withdrawal.