Well grunt lol I had to put my seatbelt on for that post.
Matt I have been reading your posts here and there but overall not a lot because it's the same drama all about gear n cycles. I have no disrespectful words for you but a few observations.
What grunt said about your pictures is true and always had me confused.I thought by a couple pics and as your Avi that you were a big dude but then you show comparisons and oops where did it all go. We all post the best we have so ok. But I also don't see what I would expect from someone training for all these years and doing many cycles.
IMOP it is apparent that you are relying on the hormones to do the work rather then having the compounds help what work you are doing in the gym. Sorry Matt but I have witness in my career guys with better growth on less cycles and eating a sloppy n crappy diet, but at very high calories. So IMOP you lack in training knowledge and most importantly the mind and muscle connection.
Living a wild life style and cycling crazy tends to lead to wild training where the objective is to throw heavy weight around. From all I hear in your posts I can picture you in the gym looking like a meat head instead of a more methodical focused BB with his technique.
Matt I really don't know as you might read my post and say "well what the fvck do you know old man" Your a little ecto has been. AND you were just a little guy at your best. I don't know much about your life but I have never seem a guy who pumps so much AAS into there body that it didn't change their mind set with wild aggression.
When I was a kid and had trouble with everyone and all my teachers would call write notes to my mother I would have an excuse for everything. My mother said to me "Michael, the whole world can't be wrong but you" !!! Being Bi-Polar and with Borderline Personality Psychosis I have to sometimes catch myself and say "Michael the whole world isn't wrong but you" ?
I say this ^^^ because I listen to all these people telling you things and talking about you, your cycles your lack of growth, ego and just not listening and say to myself, " shit all these guys can't be wrong but you, Matt"
I hate all this bashing you or anyone ( except the know it all bro-science kids) and would rather see you asking better questions and listening. Then coming back to report the good progress you made buy taking advice. I can't figure if you are a BB or a PL but in my book they are different worlds when advanced but the common denominator being the moving of heavy iron.
I really hope you take what I have said and some others as CONSTRUCTIVE criticism. Then to take some time off the cycles and slow down with your training technique as the important ingredient to your body's growth. Work with your mind more as you move weight to enhance your body.
I say all this as I don't know you and haven't been around but get much from all your posting and pics over the two years I've been here including what people say.
Good Luck.