alright despite advise I am listening on some things

[stevemorse0]

I hit 133 this morning and am done basically on the weight loss part of my plan, pants are size 4 and thats enough. I figure Im around 19 percent bf. Not bad for a 44 year old bag. Now I am starting my new plan. I am now throwing away the scale. Ok, Ok, I will not get on it for at least 1 month!! Is that a deal??? Well I am one week (dont yell at me) into a very low winstrol (oral) afraid of needles, too bad you cant smoke Winstrol (winny). Its 2.5 mg. I do plan on yes you are hearing this right........ upping my calories!!! Yes I am going to add some muscle here and it has sunk in that if a do a nice bulk, I could gain muscle without bodyfat or too much! Its been about 5 -6 months since I last messed with this stuff, and honestly my diet is so much better , cardio is on target and of course the lifting was always on target. So I do plan to take it one week at a time and eat clean, eat more , throw out the scale, and try to get some quality muscle. I do want more.

I have now realized one important thing, taking weight off with the right diet is EASY!! So I can get rid of that scale and not worry and then take off the weight if needed again.

I can say one thing , maybe its in my head but I feel damn good on this Winstrol (winny). Its hits me pretty quick mentally and maybe since I have messed with it before my body kinda says I know what this is. I feel so good! Mentally, physically, it seems the first 6 weeks on this stuff really agrees with me. The after about 8 - 10 weeks the crappy feelings start. So after one week, I am so ready to blast off in that gym. I mean throw the damn weights across the room and scare the housewives!!! I cant wait! BLAST OFF!!!

I know, I know, I may have not been 100 percent ready, but I cant help myself!!! I need something. I dont smoke butts anymore, no crack, no booze, no junk food, I need something !!!! This is the safest for me!! Remember Im the addict of the group. Wish me luck.

I love all of you!! Marilyn

 

[Miss Muscle]

So you leaned down to where you want to be and now you want to bulk up?

I wouldn't do the Winstrol (winny) right now. I would only train and diet properly. Increase your calories slowly by the way or you''ll gain fat quicker than you want.

I know you will do the Winstrol (winny) anyways cuz I know you Marilyn!

But don't be surprised if you don't like what you see.

Considering you've been so concerned about being lean and it took you so long.....a gain in weight right now might be mentally crippling for you.

Why not stay at this nice new lean body for a bit....and in a couple months slowly try to add some muscle?

 

[stevemorse0]

I was waiting JUST FOR YOU!!! You do know me, and you do know that I staying on this right now. I cant help myself. I am sure many feel this way but dont express it. The one good thing to reassure you is that if I dont like whats going on, I will BAIL!! I will end this at anytime. For now I am really enjoying the boost. I get a great boost from this stuff.

It would be nice to enjoy the lean me, but I need more, I need MORE!! I honestly think this is going to be the cycle to throw me over the top. Sounds just like an addict I know. I am going slow, very very slow. I will get nice muscle here, I will!!! I am determined to do this the right way this time.

I will fill you all in and lets see what happens. This ought to be interesting. I am on a very low dose, and a crappy UGL (underdosed) oral. SO it wont be that bad. I am not doing the good stuff on this cycle. This will all work in my favor ( I hope).

I will go by looks and clothes not the scale. Lets just experiement and try this out. Real slow and real low dosed. I just need this strenght boost. I am ready mentally. Weight comes off, UGLYNESS does not!!!

I do love you MM!!! I just was waiting for your head shaking, HEAD IN PALMS , post!!!