cant control my emotions???

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koolguyluis

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last night i blew up on some girl in our group project called her very offensive things and stuff like that enough to make her cry..

my emotions ranged from thats right bitch cry i hate you to feeling soooo bad for her and ashamed for what I did

sometimes i feel sooo happy and like im the shit and fuck everybody, and sometimes i feel like my stress is amplified 10fold when a stressful situation arises, minor things like project due tomorrow will make my stress response go crazy and my heart will feel like its gonna jump out of my chest

also i cant be happy if im not doing something. my body going into idle mode (no task to complete) will just start thinking, and my head will just bring up bad thoughts so i can only be happy if im in class or doing homework or at the gym but once i finish my to do list and im stuck with some free time i fuck up??

honestly i dont know whats going on and im just hoping someone on here will understand, the agression is super bad, il let comments slide out of my mouth like if im waiting to use a soda machine il make it obvious that im impatiently waiting

if someone says something i think is stupid i will immediately call them out, and it feels good very good, but maybe doesnt reflect well on me... i just think i need to control myself before i end up losing friends, no doubt i already annoyed a couple

i also get anger shakes like my whole body will be angry and its visible
 
my instructor called me out for verbally abusing a classmate and wants me to see a psychiatrist who will more than likely put me on medication but i dont know what to think about that.. i just feel... lost
 
Is it that time of the month already?...LOL...just couldn't not help saying it....JK...Cycle's affect people differently. Maybe you test level's are not steady enough. Are you on a gear cycle? If so, what does it look like. If not, maybe you need to get on testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) or something.
 
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oh my bad dude pretty much the end of the week on the i believe 3rd week of testosterone enanthate.? and 20mg aromasin eod

i find that the aromasin gives me anxiety, after squirting some into my mouth within a couple of minutes (10 or so) my heart will start beating super hard
 
try lowering the dose of aromasin. If it gives you that bad of side effects. Maybe you should cycle off. Just stop and follow a normal post cycle therapy (pct). How much test e are you taking a week? And when or how often are you pinning? This could be a big factor. When you dont keep your test levels regulated or level, then its like an up and down roller coaster with your emotions. Let me know what your cycle dosing is.
 
Luis not such a kool guy now.

Privatelabs and get a blood test. Possible your estrogen is high and you're all emo. Could be sides from your Aromatase inhibitor (AI). A lot of factors come into play including mental health... Try to eliminate as many factors as you can and figure out what makes you the way you are. Before reacting, internalize the scenario and decide how you want to react.
 
some of u are fags u know that?

I was thinking maybe high estrogen levels, but then again i dont think the test would have started aromatizing already especially since ive been taking aromasin

i have two vials of test and im pinning twice a week, one vial is 250mg/ml and one is 300mg/ml ive been swapping them like one shot would be 300 and the other would be 250

actually i am kind of an asshole and come to think of it i had outbursts prior to starting gear..

also i recently saw someone die in front of me it was very graphic, but i sort of was just like 'cool' and let it go and didnt think of it

subconsciously somethings bugging me? idk il check back with a blood test guys
 
probably shouldnt have written my OP when i was feeling down now that im reading it lol

but yeah the mood swings are bad.

il say this: my emotions are normal reactions to my environment but i feel that i FEEL them extremely hard

and yeah some of u think im just blaming the test and maybe i am, or maybe its placebo, but thats why im here to find out so u guys can suck it thanks
 
koolguyluis said:
some of u are fags u know that?

I was thinking maybe high estrogen levels, but then again i dont think the test would have started aromatizing already especially since ive been taking aromasin

i have two vials of test and im pinning twice a week, one vial is 250mg/ml and one is 300mg/ml ive been swapping them like one shot would be 300 and the other would be 250

actually i am kind of an asshole and come to think of it i had outbursts prior to starting gear..

also i recently saw someone die in front of me it was very graphic, but i sort of was just like 'cool' and let it go and didnt think of it

subconsciously somethings bugging me? idk il check back with a blood test guys
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I'm really not trying to be an ass hole when i say this. So please don't take offense... This is a problem that is NOT gear related. this is a mental health issue and i would recommend getting off gear (because it will amplify any and all emotion, both good and bad). And talking to a professional about your traumatic experience.

Seriously man, I hope you take my advice and work stuff out. good luck with everything.
 
How old are you? You're clearly not mentally mature enough to be doing juice, and you have an underlying mental issue that is merely being amplified. Do yourself a favor and talk to a professional. I'm not saying this to be a dick. This is just a raw honest opinion man.
 
Brian89 said:
How old are you? You're clearly not mentally mature enough to be doing juice, and you have an underlying mental issue that is merely being amplified. Do yourself a favor and talk to a professional. I'm not saying this to be a dick. This is just a raw honest opinion man.
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Pretty much agree with this. I am probably more relaxed and calm when I'm on gear. DAT test happy feeling. Feels good man.

brb smiling at everyone :)
brb making gains
brb feeling good
brb brb
 
20 years old three months into being twenty, and yeah I was probably being stupid but whatevers.
i guess il just stop pinning and start my pct?? how long ? how do i get off? all i have is nolva on hand and was planning on getting clomid but i didnt expect to be stopping early

maybe i do have a mental issue, i read however that many of the personality characteristics of steroid users are different in the first place so who knows maybe il just end up right back here


thanks for the advice fellas i'll be seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow..

ALSO. I discovered LUMPS in my SACK wtf. like the strings or whatever that attach to your nut theyre all swollen and lumpy is this normal??????
 
GoPro said:
Is it that time of the month already?...LOL...just couldn't not help saying it....JK...Cycle's affect people differently. Maybe you test level's are not steady enough. Are you on a gear cycle? If so, what does it look like. If not, maybe you need to get on TRT or something.
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Trt that quick? The op seems like he is in school still.
 
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