honestly,,, without getting flamed by anyone for my change of heart!
In an nutshell since I have been using gear I have run into nothing but problems that would have never happened if I stayed all-natural.
Not neccesarily physical problems either. To many legal worries. People always saying shit about ya. Massive jealousy from others either in the gym or out of the gym. Clothes that never fit. thats silly but anoying when you cant wear a suit! I quess I was in the wrong area for that level of bodybuilding.
Felt like I have cheated myself. Was clean for thrity years, won almost every natural show I did. Went on the gear and kept winning, but lost other things. The importance of everyday life. Family, career and friends etc. And I really hate sticking myself!!
I have notived that my joints have more pain now from the heavy weights I have used. At one point I was pressing 505 on the bench, flys with 90 lb DB's and leg pressing 2495 lbs. I don't think I was designed for that. I always recieved more compliments when I was like 190-195lbs lean all the time not 245 lbs.
I think in the world of gear you have the people who do it to compete, either nationally or locally and then the guys who just want to be big. I never cared about being bigger then everyone else just winning my next show. I made it to a level that I am proud of that accomplishment but realize I do not have what it takes to go the next, or am willing to try because of the drawbacks I listed before. I thank everyone who has e-mailed me or IM me, helped me with my questions etc. I always felt that the guys here where of the best quality of any board. Biggieswolls you have been great and I will check in still and see whats up with everyone.
I want to add one last note, everyone be careful with your ordering and who you talk to and who you trust. Watch what you say in the gym and out on town. Do not order large amounts, and do it privately without involving any of your friends. Don't boast, brag and be humble. Remember we all started at the bottom. I guess I will start my clomid since it's been 2 weeks or more allready. Thanks guys it's been a wild journey!!!!!!! Nyflex