Spitshine1144
New member
So against all better judgement i used AAS at 19. Did two cycles in one year and saw phenomenal results. I got exactly what I wanted from steroids. I achieved the body I wanted and lost all interest in "being unnaturally huge." I thought I was done taking steroids for good.
But now I'm turning 21 in a couple months and mentally I'm just not in a good place. There are tons of changes going on in my life (new friends, long distance relationship with gf takes a toll emotionally, broken hand - twice etc.) but I almost feel like it's low test from the damage I undoubtedly did to my HPA while cycling.
I feel depressed, foggy minded, my sex drive isn't where it use to be... basically a myriad of low T symptoms. If it weren't for these specific symptoms along with blood results that show 350 ng/dl total test (bloods from months ago, new blood results coming in Monday) I wouldn't be blaming all my problems on steroids, but to me all signs seem to be pointing to that.
I can't seem to focus on day to day tasks and I have no drive or motivation. No passion. I don't know where I want to go in life and I can't seem to figure it out. I feel like my mind is in limbo or something. Now I spend a lot of my time worrying about what possible problems I've caused myself and struggling with the reality that I may need testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) at 21.
But now I'm turning 21 in a couple months and mentally I'm just not in a good place. There are tons of changes going on in my life (new friends, long distance relationship with gf takes a toll emotionally, broken hand - twice etc.) but I almost feel like it's low test from the damage I undoubtedly did to my HPA while cycling.
I feel depressed, foggy minded, my sex drive isn't where it use to be... basically a myriad of low T symptoms. If it weren't for these specific symptoms along with blood results that show 350 ng/dl total test (bloods from months ago, new blood results coming in Monday) I wouldn't be blaming all my problems on steroids, but to me all signs seem to be pointing to that.
I can't seem to focus on day to day tasks and I have no drive or motivation. No passion. I don't know where I want to go in life and I can't seem to figure it out. I feel like my mind is in limbo or something. Now I spend a lot of my time worrying about what possible problems I've caused myself and struggling with the reality that I may need testosterone replacement therapy (TRT) at 21.