Hope you are handling it better.
Hey bro, I know how you're feeling. I just lost my wife after 14 yrs. Found out she was bangin her boss behind my back. Wanted to kill her, him and myself. Had all my guns in the trunk loaded and ready to blow everything to hell. Funny thing is my car broke down on the highway before I got to where they were.
Point is it aint worth it. If she said she would be with you just to make u happy, would u want her? Isn't that what you are trying to get her to do by threatening suicide? I say threatening because u and I know that if we were gonna do it we would have already.
Things change. People change, especially young ones. I personally have found that I am better off emotionally right now than I was in July and Aug with no juice in me.
600mg test p
350mg tren a
Feel great, confidence is high and all thoughts of doom and gloom or going all Columbine and shit are gone. So maybe it isnt the tren at all. Just try to remember that its not what others do that hurts so much. Its how we feel about what they do that bothers us.
Most feelings are conditioned responses originating from societal influences and life experience. that is why the same exact event in our society can be sad, like death, but in other cultures around the world it's cause for celebration.
At the end of the day, you are hurting and you want someone to say or do something to make it feel better. Standard! The truth of it is that until you stop looking outside yourself for happiness, you will never find it.
