Anything in moderation can be beneficial. I don't draw any correlations between AS and party drugs as the govt would like us all to do. For example, the way I think is: a party drug breaks down your body, makes you stupid, damages you, while a controlled amount of AS helps build quality muscle which may lead to a longer, higher quality of life among many seriously ill people (HIV for example experiences decreased muscle mass, pressure points, weakeness, & pain...If AS increased muscle, this is a good thing not to be demonoized.) I realize for most people on here, their use may exceed the basic prescribed amounts and some may be using without valid prescriptions although most people probably have a valid reason for wanting to use.
Did you know that once you reach 30 your natural levels start declining? & just like a woman gets prescribed estrogen, a man is also entitled to testosterone to maintain a healthy, consistent level to avoid lethargy, low sex drive, decreased strength...all things that make you feel bad.
So in response to your post, I would say as you age, you are more entitled to use & you should not be afraid to bring this up with your doctor. I don't believe your addiction is to the chemicals, but more the feeling of wellbeing and strength and I can completely understand this. To feel strong, powerful, independent, manly is something I can understand. Men want to feel this and women want a man possessing these qualities.
I believe you started early, probably before you exploited all other diet and exercise options and after being on this board for a while, I know members here would have tried to deter you from using at a young age. People are very conscious about encouraging young bb to learn and try everything else before resorting to AS.
*Just a thought: Could you imagine how great it would be if everyone over 30 had a valid script for whatever they used? This should really be something people consider doing because I believe most users are >30.
If this happened, the people breaking the law would be a sliver of the population and the govt would have to focus on missing children, murders, and other worthy causes instead of trying to bust middle aged men who are well within their right to use what they do.
Get a script guys.