Feeling depressed

Hey guys , long story short:
i'm on my 3rd cycle now :
1-16 test prop 150-200mg eod.
(added some nnp and tboll)
proviron just in case..

First 8 weeks where great (as always on cycle hehe) , but then I was forced to change from steroid brand cuz I broke a vail.
I bought new one (from another dealer) but it was fake , I went off for 1 week(cuz it was fake , I pinned it but I was tired the whole day = fake). Then I still wasnt sure that I could get legit stuff again. So I was 'forced" to go in my pct , I popped 25mg nolvadex. 30 minutes later I get a call from my dealer that he have the legit stuff again. I pinned 150mg , felt great for the first day (maybe placebo) , now i'm feeling empty , I dont know why its a really weird feeling. I cant eat for shit! i'm forcing my self to eat but its very hard .First I fellt tired but now i have my energy back but I feel depressed. i'm not a little girl I can handle it.

I went to a new years party , I had succes with girls , danced my ass off , it was a great night , but when I came home i felt empty and depressed. I dont know whats wrong . Maybe the nolvadex / proviron killed my estrogen lvl's? , I dont have moodswings I feel sad/empty the whole day. maybe I fucked my hormone lvls , Is this dangerous? maybe I should go to a docter. i'm not afraid to get bloodwork after a cycle , but i'm a little bit afraid to tell him how fucked up i am right now ..
 
Sounds like an estrogen issue, were you still taking an Aromatase inhibitor (AI) on the bunk gear? I don't think it is that serious, you should wait and see how things go now that you are back on cycle again. Give some time for your estrogen to get back to where it needs to be. I don't think going to a doctor is necessary.
 
Yes I was taking proviron with the fake gear , first my libido went away , then I popped 50mg of proviron ed and felt decent , but day by day I went 'depressed' not really depressed , just fucked up. (low test lvls)
 
Agree with O but one footnote if you feel anyworse do not hesitate to talk to some one about it, be it your best friend a professional or anything like that.

Good luck
 
dunno , i'm feeling great now , maybe cuz I was drunk yesterday for the first time in 4 mounths haha, cant wait to rape the gym tomorrow. full of energy now! rawrrrr can eat again.
 
Alcohol tends to fuck with us a bit more than the average joe. Glad to hear ur feeling better. Hope u have a great new year
 
I've said this many times...when we are on cycle we tend to attribute anything bad in our lives to the drugs, when there is no reason we should. Shit happens, we all have bad times. If you had a night, consider what you are missing in your life and don't assume it's the drugs. Steroids are certainly not depressants. When you feel like that, take a second and think, "what would make me feel better right now?"

A lot of times it is things that we don't want to admit...like an ex girlfriend or something. There are tons of reasons to think that we don't want something when we really do want it. It is far better to accept that something is missing than to go around attributing how we feel to an irrelevant factor.
 
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