I understand. The diet is the hard part and the most important part. It's where we all go wrong at some point. Keep all your food clean and lower calories until you lose some weight. That'll help ya understand how you personally react to changes so that you know about how much to add when cycling. I guess it's just a personal decision on which to do first though......cut or bulk. I personally like to lose a few pounds then cycle for further recomp. Cutting cycles are no fun in my opinion
So pick a direction and fire it up bro
Of course you could always become a client of 3j and I'm sure he will be very specific as to what you need to eat with your training. Pick a goal and share it with him. Seems to know his shit.
I know I haven't helped you. Sorry bro. Diet is tricky advice to give others.
Good luck and let us know how it goes no matter what you decide
Edit: Just realized you weren't the OP. lol.....im a dumbass