Pct/ new relationship/ in a bad place

[Millertime]

I'm 38 yes old and the past couple years I blasted and cruised because I never thought I'd find someone I wanted to marry. Found a girl 4 months ago and right off the bat had ED issues. Was hit or miss and I had to concentrate so hard to be halfway decent even with cialis. I decided to break from everything 5 weeks ago was my last shot. I can say its taken my libido 100% away and I can't perform at all in the bedroom. My girl is so pissed at me because I kind of led her to believe I was doing trt from a dr. Now its crippled our perfect relationship and I'm thinking I'd love to have kids with her. The earliest I can get into a dr is in another two weeks. I can't believe I don't have any libido yet. Then my concern is him telling me I need to stay off completely if I'm thinking of kids. I don't think she'll stick around if I can't perform soon. Just in a dark place and venting to my ology brothers. By the time I see the dr will be 7 weeks since my last pin. I'm praying for something to happen and no I'm not taking any pct because I don't wanna mess up my test results.

 

[Milton]

Hoping the best for you brother, and that it all works out, good help coming dont worry. Please keep us posted

 

[Ghost124]

What kind of PCT did you run or still running?

 

[halfwit]

Duuuuuuuuuude! You didn't have to go about things in such a harsh way!

I would have gotten on PCT and gone from there. Are you hoping that the doc will prescribe TRT? I guess the best thing is what you're doing at this point as you have an appointment. I do truly hope things work out for the best brother.


Edit: 38 isn't old. I'm older, and young - so the laws of mathematics state that you're young too.

 

[Millertime]

Thanks brothers I hope it works out. I ran hcg at the end with two weeks of clomid nolvadex. I stopped because I don't want false readings when I get tested. I was on trt from a physician then I started just cruising on my own. I'm not gonna lie I ran too long. I've cycled many times in the past but was at least able to perform sum what on pct. Now its zilch and the girl is not very understanding. I'm praying that at 5 weeks off something will come back and be able to save the relationship.

 

[Ghost124]

Thanks brothers I hope it works out. I ran hcg at the end with two weeks of clomid nolvadex. I stopped because I don't want false readings when I get tested. I was on trt from a physician then I started just cruising on my own. I'm not gonna lie I ran too long. I've cycled many times in the past but was at least able to perform sum what on pct. Now its zilch and the girl is not very understanding. I'm praying that at 5 weeks off something will come back and be able to save the relationship.

In the meantime just make her squirt with your fingers. It will keep her "satisfied" to an extent

 

[Southernfish]

I dont like to hear things like this. Sorry to hear about all the stress. You mentioned you were on prescribed TRT then started cruising on your own. Why did you give up the prescribed TRT? Or am I missing something?

 

[Millertime]

I know right. I figured I'd just get her off but nope she doesn't want any of that. Said I'm ruining her libido. Shoot me. All last summer I was screwing multiple women 3 times a day and loving life. Now I find a good one and struggle with once. Its just a mental crash I'm dealing with on top of everything. Makes me wish I would of taken a break before I met her. Guys lives revolve around our cocks and when shit goes south its torture on our masculinity. Taking juice has its perks but also its share of negatives.

 

[Milton]

Duuuuuuuuuude! You didn't have to go about things in such a harsh way!

I would have gotten on PCT and gone from there. Are you hoping that the doc will prescribe TRT? I guess the best thing is what you're doing at this point as you have an appointment. I do truly hope things work out for the best brother.


Edit: 38 isn't old. I'm older, and young - so the laws of mathematics state that you're young too.

if I'm 47 and still feeling young and your 38 and still feeling young then hes still a baby with a great future ahead of him

 

[halfwit]

Out of curiosity, is this a drive problem, or a case of the floppies problem? If you just can't get hard at all, I'd mention prolactin to your doc. I'd suggest taking caber, but that could interfere with blood work.

 

[Millertime]

I'm mentally horny but physically can barely get it up alone let alone the stress with her there. I thought about taking caber but I don't wanna throw off the test.

 

[TheResearcher]

The anxiety of libido issues and not being able to please her might be contributing even more to your ED.
Try to relax some, sex is important in a relationship, but not as much to women as it is to men.

What were you on when you stopped 7 weeks ago?

 

[halfwit]

I'm mentally horny but physically can barely get it up alone let alone the stress with her there. I thought about taking caber but I don't wanna throw off the test.

Yeah, sounds like potentially prolactin messing with things. TheResearcher actually brings up a very valid point too. Nothing makes a man softer than a head trip.

 

[Millertime]

Right now I'm mind fucked and I agree its gonna multiply 10x. I've cycled many times but this has truly been the worst as far as timing. I've become so insecure for nothing. I've dated many attractive women but you'd think this girl is my first. Really hoping the dr will put me back on trt and at least save the relationship. Then once we decide to have kids I can do whatever in trying to make babies.

 

[Transporter]

The way I see it is, issue number one... poor pct especially being on test for years, Two weeks of pct is a joke after being on for that long. Issue number two is the girl. Putting pressure on you to perform is fucking with your head. ( not that it is her fault but that don't help ) With that being said, I would definitely try some either Cialis or Viagra meantime till you see the doc. Good luck bud !

 

[halfwit]

Right now I'm mind fucked and I agree its gonna multiply 10x. I've cycled many times but this has truly been the worst as far as timing. I've become so insecure for nothing. I've dated many attractive women but you'd think this girl is my first. Really hoping the dr will put me back on trt and at least save the relationship. Then once we decide to have kids I can do whatever in trying to make babies.

Does she at least know it's hormonal in nature? I know you said she was upset when you admitted to self treatment, but she at least knows it's not HER, right?

That's one thing that almost ended my marriage while hypogonadal; I had no desire, and if she managed to get me interested enough, it was very lackluster. She thought it was her, and how she must not have been attractive to me anymore - which couldn't have been further from the truth - but you know how women can be when their imagination runs wild.

If you have discussed it with her, just let her know that you appreciate her patience and it really means a lot to you. Hearing stuff like that (as long as you don't start sobbing) tends to cool their heels a bit.

 

[Millertime]

Yes she does know its hormonal but I'm sure still might have some thought it could be her. I'm feeling better everyday. Didn't really want to stop my pct after only two weeks but just didn't want the clomid to elevate the test. I'm not even on any creative just to be sure. Now I've got an added stress I'm fertile. I've got so many things going on in my life its pretty overwhelming. Plus I feel she makes things harder on me because she's upset. Almost wanting to teach me a lesson. I bought a fertility test online and it'll be here next week. If it turns out positive I'll at least have that burden off my chest. If its bad news I don't know what'll happen.

 

[Trevdog]

I think you need to restart PCT and run it for a solid month. At some point you should probably get a sperm count done.

I wouldn't worry about being infertile, that is really rare.

Personally, I was on for something like 6 years straight of test, deca, and orals off and on. My gf got pregnant so I had a sperm test done. The count was about 20% of what it was expected for my age at the time but I thought it would be close to zero. When I finally went off for a period after about 8 years I did experience a libido drop but I recovered pretty well and I think the difference is that I ran the PCT for a full month. She ended up having a miscarriage which was a little sad for a short time but ultimately for the best since the relationship ended about 6 months later and I already had the only child I had really wanted and planned. I've been back on for about 6 years and my guess is that I still make enough sperm to conceive but fortunately my current wife had a hysterectomy before I met her.

 

[halfwit]

Yes she does know its hormonal but I'm sure still might have some thought it could be her. I'm feeling better everyday. Didn't really want to stop my pct after only two weeks but just didn't want the clomid to elevate the test. I'm not even on any creative just to be sure. Now I've got an added stress I'm fertile. I've got so many things going on in my life its pretty overwhelming. Plus I feel she makes things harder on me because she's upset. Almost wanting to teach me a lesson. I bought a fertility test online and it'll be here next week. If it turns out positive I'll at least have that burden off my chest. If its bad news I don't know what'll happen.

Like Trevdog stated, the odds are in your favor. Try not to think about fertility at this point anyway; there are a ton of tools available to help in the case the swimmers are feeling a bit shy. Most guys that I know of that have fertility issues had them BEFORE they started AAS, if that helps things.

Just ride it out. One of my favorite quotes from Nietzsche is that "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger". I think of challenges like this as a test of our resolve, and it's how we react that really matters.

 

[oldmusclemike]

Yeah, sounds like potentially prolactin messing with things. TheResearcher actually brings up a very valid point too. Nothing makes a man softer than a head trip.

First man , sorry for this happening. True about the stress now making things worse.


Listen man, about age, I'm 65 and have some ED problems. I use RUI's liquid Cialis and it is great. When I do like 15mgs of the stuff it keeps me going for 2 days , really. But I will tell you that even with the Cialis my brain and mood can fvck with my dick.

If I look at some of the porn that I like (a little soft) I forget about anything else and then I have no problem. But sometimes presented with the pressure of " this must happen" well it goes south.

Gotta see if you can work with / on her in the interim. If you can get her mind off the subject you can please her. It has to be done in a loving manner.


That's my input here. Good luck