Well hon,i finally got up the courage to visit my dads home and his grave this past saturday,i sat at his grave and talked to him for 2 hours,it was a humbling experience to say the least,and so heart breaking,and after i left,i guess reality is starting to set in,that hes really gone,but even though i was all to pieces when i left,i felt so much better,knowing i had talked to him and i visited with my stepmom and it was emotional as well,just walking around his house and looking at all his stuff was just heartbreaking,but i done it,and it made me feel better,i still am hurting bad,but its gonna get better