Man... your just battling yourself here. Your asking for trouble, stating your gonna finish what you started, when you need to STOP. You should've quit as soon as you seen/read how to cycle properly. Saved what you have and incorporate it in your second cycle. Start your post cycle therapy (pct) and you'll recover quickly as opposed to finishing this damaging cycle that will acheive less than par gains if any. A SIMPLE search of, "STEROIDS FIRST CYCLE" would've immediatly brought up TEST ONLY, TEST FOR FIRST CYCLE, RUN TEST AS A BASE, TEST..TEST ..TEST.
Your just hurting yourself, this is why everyone is getting frustrated with you, your turning the best advice into an excuse to finish. I'm stubborn just like you, and would want to say the same "fuck it, I'm gonna finish" But this game of gear is no joke, and you can easily destroy yourself. If your like this now, you better be prepared for when your cycle/future cycles are done.---Loss of muscle/gains---depression---not wanting to recover/start another cylce because you feel/look better. ADDICTION.