Giving it up

jimdawg

Testalicious
Most of you probably don't give a shit, which is cool, because I wouldn't either if I didn't understand. I wouldn't go as far as to say that gear ruined my life, but things have been worse. It is very addictive hearing everyone call you a beast or make jokes about how big you have gotten. When you are off, they tell you that you are looking smaller. It is too many head games. I am a jealous person that can control myself. I can't anymore. My thoughts blurt out and reality gets distorted. My mind just constantly runs, creating scenarious that do not exist. I always had some jelousy in me I admit so I am not blaming the gear on starting something, just intensifying all of my feelings. My marriage ended in too many fights, and now my newer relationship with a girl that everyone would dream of almost ended last night. (No I'm not posting pics, lol). Just my two cents on how it has changed me. This board has been awesome and very entertaining. Alios Amigos.
 
good luck, gear isn't for everyone.

I don't use Anabolic Androgenic Steroids (AAS) but i've found that this board is still very helpfull, i spend my time in the online journal section, the training forum and the diet forum.

hope to still see you around,.


post some pics of new girl.
 
pls post pics of the girl.

i use tren without an increase in aggression. It's not for everyone. But like anything, an addictive personality can ruin your life, whether it be to drugs, booze, gambling, women, etc. The gear was not your problem. You might need professional help. Until then, i suggest getting back on the gear and back to your better life style
 
jimdawg said:
Most of you probably don't give a shit, which is cool, because I wouldn't either if I didn't understand. I wouldn't go as far as to say that gear ruined my life, but things have been worse. It is very addictive hearing everyone call you a beast or make jokes about how big you have gotten. When you are off, they tell you that you are looking smaller. It is too many head games. I am a jealous person that can control myself. I can't anymore. My thoughts blurt out and reality gets distorted. My mind just constantly runs, creating scenarious that do not exist. I always had some jelousy in me I admit so I am not blaming the gear on starting something, just intensifying all of my feelings. My marriage ended in too many fights, and now my newer relationship with a girl that everyone would dream of almost ended last night. (No I'm not posting pics, lol). Just my two cents on how it has changed me. This board has been awesome and very entertaining. Alios Amigos.

No, I wouldn't say no one cares because even though we don't know one another personally, we are all here sharing our valuable time and stories to help better each other. Totally appreciate the post!! Good call bro.. they say it's (whatever that maybe) a "problem" when it starts to effect your day to day living. Obviously the case here, so good job man'ing up and getting 'er done!
I will comment on the fact that I hear this type of story more from "Tren" users, then any other. I've almost never hear it from the typical Test/var or Test/Eq guy. If you still check this thread, just curious what you were use to using and how long?
 
jimdawg said:
Most of you probably don't give a shit, which is cool, because I wouldn't either if I didn't understand. I wouldn't go as far as to say that gear ruined my life, but things have been worse. It is very addictive hearing everyone call you a beast or make jokes about how big you have gotten. When you are off, they tell you that you are looking smaller. It is too many head games. I am a jealous person that can control myself. I can't anymore. My thoughts blurt out and reality gets distorted. My mind just constantly runs, creating scenarious that do not exist. I always had some jelousy in me I admit so I am not blaming the gear on starting something, just intensifying all of my feelings. My marriage ended in too many fights, and now my newer relationship with a girl that everyone would dream of almost ended last night. (No I'm not posting pics, lol). Just my two cents on how it has changed me. This board has been awesome and very entertaining. Alios Amigos.

ye i know how u feel, i dont want to end my cycle..but health comes first
 
It is part of the game and you have to have the good with the bad the yin with the yang so to speak. Now I don't know how old you are but at this time it may not be a good thing. Are you sure you are still working out when not on roids? Are you a health consious person? Maybe your post cycle therapy (pct) could use some help. Just my thoughts!
 
That's very mature of you to admit your other problems in life aren't allowing you to use gear. Gear is not for people who can't maintain a clear and objective state of mind.
 
I can sympathize with your plight jimdawg. My mind constantly runs too and i create the craziest scenarios. Just ask my wife. One time she got a UTI and i was convinced the really had contracted an STD from another guy and gave it to me cause i was imagining symptoms that werent really there. I even made her call her OBGYN right in front of me to verify the test results. Im lucky she understands and i try to be more aware of when my mind is running amuck and shut it down before i get myself into trouble. That particular incident was kind of embarrasing to say the least.
 
Dude, I hear you but it sounds like you are dealing with issues unrelated to gear. Cool that you know it doesn't work for you...you should rent and watch the movie "Bug". Regardless, sucks that you have all the issues to deal with. For me, the gym and to some extent Anabolic Androgenic Steroids (AAS) usage have always been a way to escape and keep my sanity. NOT THAT I ACTUALLY USE GEAR IF ANY FUCKING DIRTBAG MOTHERFUCKER LE COCKSUCERS ARE MONITORING THIS SITE.
 
Gear can push you over the edge if your close to it...wise choice to give it a break....take some time off, hopefully when your ready to come back all the heat on sources and China will have blown over too :D

PS Are you sure it's the gear and not a woman messing with your mind....woman make gear sides look insignificant!
 
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Good luck bro dont listen to these dumb fucks with there cheap shots it takes a real man to attack his problems head on and no amount of gear can help you do that. No doubt we'll see you in the future until then enjoy life and stay safe.
 
I think your decission of dropping the gear will be very effective for getting whatever psychological disorder you have; i'm not labeling you either, it's just clear to me. People that have never faced psyche issues will never understand your decission..... so they inevitably speak from their asses. Which happens often when a real life experience has never occured to the person who still feels as if though their advice will be beneficial.

While taking this break, make sure you really evaluate what's important to you.... perhaps training isn't at the top of your list, anymore. After seeking the proper professional attention this type of matter will need, just keep in mind that slowing yourself into certain situations will always win the race.

Good luck
 
I think that everyone should listen to what he has said B/C weather or not you think it affects you the same, gear Can and Dose have an effect on one's state of mind weather that it an posative or nagitive effect well that in IMO a vary thin line. Thx for the post BRO.

PS. Sides from gear are not always physical
 
ManOfMuscle said:
That's very mature of you to admit your other problems in life aren't allowing you to use gear. Gear is not for people who can't maintain a clear and objective state of mind.
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