I'm new and need help...please no bashing, my life has been a living hell for over a

[Milton]

I'm not sure how to do that...it's in PDf....has a lot of info...I got it sent to me this morning from Defy medical.

Convert it to word format and remove any personal info, or cover it up somehow. Then reply and insert image.. View attachment 565136
View attachment 565137 simple.

 

[etharris]

Ok....the report is pretty long and has a lot of info.

This is after being on 2 months of trt 200 mgs weekly.

Total test 590 ng/dl
Free test 17.2 pg/ml
Estradiol 36.9 pg/ ml
LH .2 MIU/ML
THE 1.940 uIU/ML

Doesn't have FSH for some reason...is the TSH used for that?

 

[etharris]

Milton or Halfwit, is there anyway I can send the pdf to your email....For the life of me, I used to be more computer literate, but I have tried to convert pdf into word and am not successful... Id like for you to review everything on here...I don't mind you seeing my personal info...it doesn't list my ssn so everything else is cool with me...I just want to get healthy. Im not fond of trt and quite honestly after getting myself into this shape, a bottle of tst makes me sick to look at. too, I don't have the means to continue finanacially.

 

[Milton]

No, its best to do it right here on the open boards. You should just be able to copy and paste it here. I copy and paste from PDF's all the time.

 

[etharris]

CBC With Differential/Platelet

WBC 7.7 x10E3/uL 3.4 - 10.8 01 RBC 6.00 High x10E6/uL 4.14 - 5.80 01 Hemoglobin 18.5 High g/dL 12.6 - 17.7 01 Hematocrit 54.9 High % 37.5 - 51.0 01 MCV 92 fL 79 - 97 01 MCH 30.8 pg 26.6 - 33.0 01 MCHC 33.7 g/dL 31.5 - 35.7 01 RDW 13.2 % 12.3 - 15.4 01 Platelets 254 x10E3/uL 150 - 379 01

Neutrophils 58 % 01

Lymphs 28 % 01

Monocytes 7 % 01

Eos 7 % 01

Basos 0 % 01

Neutrophils (Absolute) 4.5 x10E3/uL 1.4 - 7.0 01

Lymphs (Absolute) 2.1 x10E3/uL 0.7 - 3.1 01

Monocytes(Absolute) 0.6 x10E3/uL 0.1 - 0.9 01 Eos (Absolute) 0.5 High x10E3/uL 0.0 - 0.4 01 Baso (Absolute) 0.0 x10E3/uL 0.0 - 0.2 01

Immature Granulocytes 0 % 01

Immature Grans (Abs) 0.0 x10E3/uL 0.0 - 0.1 01

Comp. Metabolic Panel (14)

Glucose, Serum 104 High mg/dL 65 - 99 01 BUN 9 mg/dL 6 - 24 01 Creatinine, Serum 1.12 mg/dL 0.76 - 1.27 01 eGFR If NonAfricn Am 81 mL/min/1.73 >59 eGFR If Africn Am 94 mL/min/1.73 >59

BUN/Creatinine Ratio 8 Low 9 - 20

Sodium, Serum 142 mmol/L 134 - 144 01

Potassium, Serum 3.9 mmol/L 3.5 - 5.2 01

Chloride, Serum 101 mmol/L 97 - 108 01 Carbon Dioxide, Total 21 mmol/L 18 - 29 01 Calcium, Serum 9.0 mg/dL 8.7 - 10.2 01 Protein, Total, Serum 6.5 g/dL 6.0 - 8.5 01

Albumin, Serum 4.0 g/dL 3.5 - 5.5 01

Globulin, Total 2.5 g/dL 1.5 - 4.5 A/G Ratio 1.6 1.1 - 2.5

Bilirubin, Total 0.6 mg/dL 0.0 - 1.2 01 Alkaline Phosphatase, S 71 IU/L 39 - 117 01 AST (SGOT) 21 IU/L 0 - 40 01

ALT (SGPT) 24 IU/L 0 - 44 01

Lipid Panel w/ Chol/HDL Ratio

Cholesterol, Total 179 mg/dL 100 - 199 01

Triglycerides 140 mg/dL 0 - 149 01 HDL Cholesterol 31 Low mg/dL >39 01

Comment 01

According to ATP-III Guidelines, HDL-C >59 mg/dL is considered a negative risk factor for CHD.

VLDL Cholesterol Cal 28 mg/dL 5 - 40 LDL Cholesterol Calc 120 High mg/dL 0 - 99

T. Chol/HDL Ratio 5.8 High ratio units 0.0 - 5.0

Please Note: 01

T. Chol/HDL Ratio Men Women

1/2 Avg.Risk 3.4 3.3

Avg.Risk 5.0 4.4

2X Avg.Risk 9.6 7.1

3X Avg.Risk 23.4 11.0

Testosterone,Free and Total

Testosterone, Serum 590 ng/dL 348 - 1197 01

Comment:

Adult male reference interval is based on a population of lean males up to 40 years old.

Free Testosterone(Direct) 17.2 pg/mL 6.8 - 21.5 02

DHEA-Sulfate 225.7 ug/dL 102.6 - 416.3 01

TSH 1.940 uIU/mL 0.450 - 4.500 01

Luteinizing Hormone(LH), S

LH <0.2 Low mIU/mL 1.7 - 8.6 01

BUN/Creatinine Ratio 8 Low 9 - 20

Sodium, Serum 142 mmol/L 134 - 144 01

Potassium, Serum 3.9 mmol/L 3.5 - 5.2 01

Chloride, Serum 101 mmol/L 97 - 108 01 Carbon Dioxide, Total 21 mmol/L 18 - 29 01 Calcium, Serum 9.0 mg/dL 8.7 - 10.2 01 Protein, Total, Serum 6.5 g/dL 6.0 - 8.5 01

Albumin, Serum 4.0 g/dL 3.5 - 5.5 01

Globulin, Total 2.5 g/dL 1.5 - 4.5 A/G Ratio 1.6 1.1 - 2.5

Bilirubin, Total 0.6 mg/dL 0.0 - 1.2 01 Alkaline Phosphatase, S 71 IU/L 39 - 117 01 AST (SGOT) 21 IU/L 0 - 40 01

ALT (SGPT) 24 IU/L 0 - 44 01

Lipid Panel w/ Chol/HDL Ratio

Cholesterol, Total 179 mg/dL 100 - 199 01

Triglycerides 140 mg/dL 0 - 149 01 HDL Cholesterol 31 Low mg/dL >39 01

Comment 01

According to ATP-III Guidelines, HDL-C >59 mg/dL is considered a negative risk factor for CHD.

VLDL Cholesterol Cal 28 mg/dL 5 - 40 LDL Cholesterol Calc 120 High mg/dL 0 - 99

T. Chol/HDL Ratio 5.8 High ratio units 0.0 - 5.0

Please Note: 01

T. Chol/HDL Ratio Men Women

1/2 Avg.Risk 3.4 3.3

Avg.Risk 5.0 4.4

2X Avg.Risk 9.6 7.1

3X Avg.Risk 23.4 11.0

Testosterone,Free and Total

Testosterone, Serum 590 ng/dL 348 - 1197 01

Comment:

Adult male reference interval is based on a population of lean males up to 40 years old.

Free Testosterone(Direct) 17.2 pg/mL 6.8 - 21.5 02

DHEA-Sulfate 225.7 ug/dL 102.6 - 416.3 01

TSH 1.940 uIU/mL 0.450 - 4.500 01

Luteinizing Hormone(LH), S

LH <0.2 Low mIU/mL 1.7 - 8.6 01
BUN/Creatinine Ratio 8 Low 9 - 20

Sodium, Serum 142 mmol/L 134 - 144 01

Potassium, Serum 3.9 mmol/L 3.5 - 5.2 01

Chloride, Serum 101 mmol/L 97 - 108 01 Carbon Dioxide, Total 21 mmol/L 18 - 29 01 Calcium, Serum 9.0 mg/dL 8.7 - 10.2 01 Protein, Total, Serum 6.5 g/dL 6.0 - 8.5 01

Albumin, Serum 4.0 g/dL 3.5 - 5.5 01

Globulin, Total 2.5 g/dL 1.5 - 4.5 A/G Ratio 1.6 1.1 - 2.5

Bilirubin, Total 0.6 mg/dL 0.0 - 1.2 01 Alkaline Phosphatase, S 71 IU/L 39 - 117 01 AST (SGOT) 21 IU/L 0 - 40 01

ALT (SGPT) 24 IU/L 0 - 44 01

Lipid Panel w/ Chol/HDL Ratio

Cholesterol, Total 179 mg/dL 100 - 199 01

Triglycerides 140 mg/dL 0 - 149 01 HDL Cholesterol 31 Low mg/dL >39 01

Comment 01

According to ATP-III Guidelines, HDL-C >59 mg/dL is considered a negative risk factor for CHD.

VLDL Cholesterol Cal 28 mg/dL 5 - 40 LDL Cholesterol Calc 120 High mg/dL 0 - 99

T. Chol/HDL Ratio 5.8 High ratio units 0.0 - 5.0

Please Note: 01

T. Chol/HDL Ratio Men Women

1/2 Avg.Risk 3.4 3.3

Avg.Risk 5.0 4.4

2X Avg.Risk 9.6 7.1

3X Avg.Risk 23.4 11.0

Testosterone,Free and Total

Testosterone, Serum 590 ng/dL 348 - 1197 01

Comment:

Adult male reference interval is based on a population of lean males up to 40 years old.

Free Testosterone(Direct) 17.2 pg/mL 6.8 - 21.5 02

DHEA-Sulfate 225.7 ug/dL 102.6 - 416.3 01

TSH 1.940 uIU/mL 0.450 - 4.500 01

Luteinizing Hormone(LH), S

LH <0.2 Low mIU/mL 1.7 - 8.6 01
Prostate-Specific Ag, Serum

Prostate Specific Ag, Serum 1.9 ng/mL 0.0 - 4.0 01

Roche ECLIA methodology.

According to the American Urological Association, Serum PSA should

decrease and remain at undetectable levels after radical prostatectomy. The AUA defines biochemical recurrence as an initial PSA value 0.2 ng/mL or greater followed by a subsequent confirmatory PSA value 0.2 ng/mL or greater.

Values obtained with different assay methods or kits cannot be used interchangeably. Results cannot be interpreted as absolute evidence of the presence or absence of malignant disease.

Estradiol, Sensitive 36.9 High pg/mL 8.0 - 35.0 02 This test was developed and its performance characteristics determined by LabCorp. It has not been cleared by the Food and

Drug Administration.

Methodology: Liquid chromatography tandem mass spectrometry(LC/MS/MS)

Progesterone 0.7 ng/mL 0.2 - 1.4 01

Cardiovascular Report

 

[Milton]

CBC With Differential/Platelet

WBC 7.7 x10E3/uL 3.4 - 10.8 01 RBC 6.00 High x10E6/uL 4.14 - 5.80 01 Hemoglobin 18.5 High g/dL 12.6 - 17.7 01 Hematocrit 54.9 High % 37.5 - 51.0 01 MCV 92 fL 79 - 97 01 MCH 30.8 pg 26.6 - 33.0 01 MCHC 33.7 g/dL 31.5 - 35.7 01 RDW 13.2 % 12.3 - 15.4 01 Platelets 254 x10E3/uL 150 - 379 01

Neutrophils 58 % 01

Lymphs 28 % 01

Monocytes 7 % 01

Eos 7 % 01

Basos 0 % 01

Neutrophils (Absolute) 4.5 x10E3/uL 1.4 - 7.0 01

Lymphs (Absolute) 2.1 x10E3/uL 0.7 - 3.1 01

Monocytes(Absolute) 0.6 x10E3/uL 0.1 - 0.9 01 Eos (Absolute) 0.5 High x10E3/uL 0.0 - 0.4 01 Baso (Absolute) 0.0 x10E3/uL 0.0 - 0.2 01

Immature Granulocytes 0 % 01

Immature Grans (Abs) 0.0 x10E3/uL 0.0 - 0.1 01

Comp. Metabolic Panel (14)

Glucose, Serum 104 High mg/dL 65 - 99 01 BUN 9 mg/dL 6 - 24 01 Creatinine, Serum 1.12 mg/dL 0.76 - 1.27 01 eGFR If NonAfricn Am 81 mL/min/1.73 >59 eGFR If Africn Am 94 mL/min/1.73 >59

BUN/Creatinine Ratio 8 Low 9 - 20

Sodium, Serum 142 mmol/L 134 - 144 01

Potassium, Serum 3.9 mmol/L 3.5 - 5.2 01

Chloride, Serum 101 mmol/L 97 - 108 01 Carbon Dioxide, Total 21 mmol/L 18 - 29 01 Calcium, Serum 9.0 mg/dL 8.7 - 10.2 01 Protein, Total, Serum 6.5 g/dL 6.0 - 8.5 01

Albumin, Serum 4.0 g/dL 3.5 - 5.5 01

Globulin, Total 2.5 g/dL 1.5 - 4.5 A/G Ratio 1.6 1.1 - 2.5

Bilirubin, Total 0.6 mg/dL 0.0 - 1.2 01 Alkaline Phosphatase, S 71 IU/L 39 - 117 01 AST (SGOT) 21 IU/L 0 - 40 01

ALT (SGPT) 24 IU/L 0 - 44 01

Lipid Panel w/ Chol/HDL Ratio

Cholesterol, Total 179 mg/dL 100 - 199 01

Triglycerides 140 mg/dL 0 - 149 01 HDL Cholesterol 31 Low mg/dL >39 01

Comment 01

According to ATP-III Guidelines, HDL-C >59 mg/dL is considered a negative risk factor for CHD.

VLDL Cholesterol Cal 28 mg/dL 5 - 40 LDL Cholesterol Calc 120 High mg/dL 0 - 99

T. Chol/HDL Ratio 5.8 High ratio units 0.0 - 5.0

Please Note: 01

T. Chol/HDL Ratio Men Women

1/2 Avg.Risk 3.4 3.3

Avg.Risk 5.0 4.4

2X Avg.Risk 9.6 7.1

3X Avg.Risk 23.4 11.0

Testosterone,Free and Total

Testosterone, Serum 590 ng/dL 348 - 1197 01

Comment:

Adult male reference interval is based on a population of lean males up to 40 years old.

Free Testosterone(Direct) 17.2 pg/mL 6.8 - 21.5 02

DHEA-Sulfate 225.7 ug/dL 102.6 - 416.3 01

TSH 1.940 uIU/mL 0.450 - 4.500 01

Luteinizing Hormone(LH), S

LH <0.2 Low mIU/mL 1.7 - 8.6 01

BUN/Creatinine Ratio 8 Low 9 - 20

Sodium, Serum 142 mmol/L 134 - 144 01

Potassium, Serum 3.9 mmol/L 3.5 - 5.2 01

Chloride, Serum 101 mmol/L 97 - 108 01 Carbon Dioxide, Total 21 mmol/L 18 - 29 01 Calcium, Serum 9.0 mg/dL 8.7 - 10.2 01 Protein, Total, Serum 6.5 g/dL 6.0 - 8.5 01

Albumin, Serum 4.0 g/dL 3.5 - 5.5 01

Globulin, Total 2.5 g/dL 1.5 - 4.5 A/G Ratio 1.6 1.1 - 2.5

Bilirubin, Total 0.6 mg/dL 0.0 - 1.2 01 Alkaline Phosphatase, S 71 IU/L 39 - 117 01 AST (SGOT) 21 IU/L 0 - 40 01

ALT (SGPT) 24 IU/L 0 - 44 01

Lipid Panel w/ Chol/HDL Ratio

Cholesterol, Total 179 mg/dL 100 - 199 01

Triglycerides 140 mg/dL 0 - 149 01 HDL Cholesterol 31 Low mg/dL >39 01

Comment 01

According to ATP-III Guidelines, HDL-C >59 mg/dL is considered a negative risk factor for CHD.

VLDL Cholesterol Cal 28 mg/dL 5 - 40 LDL Cholesterol Calc 120 High mg/dL 0 - 99

T. Chol/HDL Ratio 5.8 High ratio units 0.0 - 5.0

Please Note: 01

T. Chol/HDL Ratio Men Women

1/2 Avg.Risk 3.4 3.3

Avg.Risk 5.0 4.4

2X Avg.Risk 9.6 7.1

3X Avg.Risk 23.4 11.0

Testosterone,Free and Total

Testosterone, Serum 590 ng/dL 348 - 1197 01

Comment:

Adult male reference interval is based on a population of lean males up to 40 years old.

Free Testosterone(Direct) 17.2 pg/mL 6.8 - 21.5 02

DHEA-Sulfate 225.7 ug/dL 102.6 - 416.3 01

TSH 1.940 uIU/mL 0.450 - 4.500 01

Luteinizing Hormone(LH), S

LH <0.2 Low mIU/mL 1.7 - 8.6 01
BUN/Creatinine Ratio 8 Low 9 - 20

Sodium, Serum 142 mmol/L 134 - 144 01

Potassium, Serum 3.9 mmol/L 3.5 - 5.2 01

Chloride, Serum 101 mmol/L 97 - 108 01 Carbon Dioxide, Total 21 mmol/L 18 - 29 01 Calcium, Serum 9.0 mg/dL 8.7 - 10.2 01 Protein, Total, Serum 6.5 g/dL 6.0 - 8.5 01

Albumin, Serum 4.0 g/dL 3.5 - 5.5 01

Globulin, Total 2.5 g/dL 1.5 - 4.5 A/G Ratio 1.6 1.1 - 2.5

Bilirubin, Total 0.6 mg/dL 0.0 - 1.2 01 Alkaline Phosphatase, S 71 IU/L 39 - 117 01 AST (SGOT) 21 IU/L 0 - 40 01

ALT (SGPT) 24 IU/L 0 - 44 01

Lipid Panel w/ Chol/HDL Ratio

Cholesterol, Total 179 mg/dL 100 - 199 01

Triglycerides 140 mg/dL 0 - 149 01 HDL Cholesterol 31 Low mg/dL >39 01

Comment 01

According to ATP-III Guidelines, HDL-C >59 mg/dL is considered a negative risk factor for CHD.

VLDL Cholesterol Cal 28 mg/dL 5 - 40 LDL Cholesterol Calc 120 High mg/dL 0 - 99

T. Chol/HDL Ratio 5.8 High ratio units 0.0 - 5.0

Please Note: 01

T. Chol/HDL Ratio Men Women

1/2 Avg.Risk 3.4 3.3

Avg.Risk 5.0 4.4

2X Avg.Risk 9.6 7.1

3X Avg.Risk 23.4 11.0

Testosterone,Free and Total

Testosterone, Serum 590 ng/dL 348 - 1197 01

Comment:

Adult male reference interval is based on a population of lean males up to 40 years old.

Free Testosterone(Direct) 17.2 pg/mL 6.8 - 21.5 02

DHEA-Sulfate 225.7 ug/dL 102.6 - 416.3 01

TSH 1.940 uIU/mL 0.450 - 4.500 01

Luteinizing Hormone(LH), S

LH <0.2 Low mIU/mL 1.7 - 8.6 01
Prostate-Specific Ag, Serum

Prostate Specific Ag, Serum 1.9 ng/mL 0.0 - 4.0 01

Roche ECLIA methodology.

According to the American Urological Association, Serum PSA should

decrease and remain at undetectable levels after radical prostatectomy. The AUA defines biochemical recurrence as an initial PSA value 0.2 ng/mL or greater followed by a subsequent confirmatory PSA value 0.2 ng/mL or greater.

Values obtained with different assay methods or kits cannot be used interchangeably. Results cannot be interpreted as absolute evidence of the presence or absence of malignant disease.

Estradiol, Sensitive 36.9 High pg/mL 8.0 - 35.0 02 This test was developed and its performance characteristics determined by LabCorp. It has not been cleared by the Food and

Drug Administration.

Methodology: Liquid chromatography tandem mass spectrometry(LC/MS/MS)

Progesterone 0.7 ng/mL 0.2 - 1.4 01

Cardiovascular Report

Prefect, thanks! Help is on the way

 

[3J]

i don't know what to say.....sounds like a super shifty situation but you can only blame yourself....and using aas without or knowing about pct just tells me you shouldn't even have been using in the first place!!!! I also hate when ppl talk about being unemployed.....dude if you have to go and shovel shit at the zoo for 10 bucks an hour do it...I'm sure they are hiring....kinda like one of the above post says a lot of personal stuff nobody cares about and you put yourself there carelessly ....gl I hope you get it figured out

youre an asshole on another level aren't you???

congrats, youre on my shit list... now ill be watching you like a hawk

 

[3J]

when did you take these bloods... when was your last and next injection?

 

[Teutonic]

youre an asshole on another level aren't you???

congrats, youre on my shit list... now ill be watching you like a hawk

He s all your s my Armenian assassin

It s like people telling me " Well u knew what you may have gotten going through that door..."
Make s me want to frag their f n house.

OP- u will be well served here. These guy s know the deal. Ultimately we all know our OWN deals (our bodies and hormonal augmentation ).
TRT got me off ssri s, opiates, benzo s and has vastly improved my natural philanthropic nature but only so much as even my hypocrisy only goes so far.

 

[manstan]

I was just having a drink with a doc friend and showed your report, he asked the question how much water do you drink and stated, it looks like the patient is chronically dehydrated and it's the first thing he should address.

 

[etharris]

I'm not drinking much water at all...I'm actually in such depression that it's hard to do anything. I barely eat...I have no motivation because everything has turned upside down. I went from training and eating a very clean healthy diet, 6-7 meals daily, high protein, moderate carbs, good fats to nothing...as previously stated, I lost my job, relationship and then stopped my aas use and that's when everything went downhill. I know the personal stuff isn't important here, b ut it's all affecting me. I feel like if I could get my system turned back on I may be able to be on my way to pulling out of this. My confidence is shot and am having a hard time doing anything but worry.

 

[etharris]

I do want to say thank you for all that has commented and offered help.

 

[Milton]

Do answer 3Js question you got the best ready to assist you

 

[etharris]

Hi 3Js, this lab work was done on 8/12/2016...last test injection was 8/25/16, week from tomorrow.

 

[etharris]

Lab work done on 8/12/16...last injection was last Thursday on 8/25/16. By the way, I gave a pint of blood last Friday to help with the high RBC.

 

[etharris]

Sorry 3js, my next injection should've been Sunday, but I want to start a power restart and was told that I need to have test clear my system...I admit, I don't know what the hell I'm doing...I just want to be normal again. Btw, I have testicular atrophy...they aren't tiny, but they are smaller and lighter...they're probably the size of a pecan, my scrotum stays tight, my penis seems to have atrophied too due to no libido for a year now...estrogen maybe, I don't know...all I know is I'm living in a nightmare...my testicles ache, my lower back aches constantly....too, another thing, I have a vericocele on my left side...not sure if anyone is familiar with that...it never caused me trouble before, but since my endocrine system crashed it's caused issues with it. Is there any possibility that I may be able to restart given my history, symptoms and age? I know everyone is different, but I'm hoping Ican.

 

[luckypaul]

I am experiencing the worse point in my life...I'm 41 yrs old, almost 42...I went through a relationship loss and job loss at same time last year and stopped aas cold turkey. I did not educate myself like I should've regarding aas usage...I started training around 14 and trained until 26 naturally...at that point I started using juice. I used until around 33 not really cycling...just doing some and the stopping with no pct...took a break from gym for about 5 yrs and no aas. When I was 37 I started training again and took test email 500 mgs a week along with tren e 500 mgs a week with no breaks for 3 yrs...very freaking stupid, I know...no pct or hcg during usage. I abruptly stopped last Sept cold turkey because of relationship loss and job loss caused me depression. The rest is history...test levels went down to 68...never came back up...had to start trt about two months ago but it feels like shit. I want to do a hard core restart...help please...I can't live on trt...I've got 30 ius of hcg, plenty of clomid and tamoxifen...all pharma...low energy, depression, anxiety, bone and hoping pain...no fucking libido...balls hurt, shrunk, caused aging skin, cardiovascular issues...it's a death sentence...I've just want to start a hard restart see what happens before I die... I have no life now...can't work or find job...be sociable or anything

You are not the only one who ever abused AAS, Unfortunately you also suffer the consequences. The best advice I have would be to get medical attention, an endocrinologist is in order.

Now for the good news, if all else fails, you can go on trt. It's not all that bad. I kind of enjoy it myself.

 

[halfwit]

I do want to say thank you for all that has commented and offered help.

Thanks for taking the time to get that down with the lab results. I know a lot of it looks like gibberish, but we can walk through the important parts.

For starters, the hemoglobin/hematocrit jump out at me. It's good that you donated, but you will want to donate again once you can. This will take some of the pressure off your cardiovascular system.

Your testosterone is clinically at a good range, but the question I have is, do you FEEL (troubles aside) good? I'm talking about the symptoms that got you on TRT in the first place. I personally was at the upper 400's while dialing in my TRT, and I still felt 'off'. It wasn't until I broke 750ng/dL that I started feeling much better. This tells me that your dose may be off a hair.

The next one that jumps out is your estradiol. It's high, and I suspect that your doc doesn't have you on an aromatase inhibitor (arimidex/aromasin/letrozole) to combat this. You have two options here to try to bring it down; introduce an AI (especially if you increase your test dose), or start injecting twice a week at E3.5D intervals (3 days for one, 4 for the other). This will give smaller peaks and troughs, which will drop down that estradiol - which is just as important as the testosterone.

TSH is the hormone sent by your brain to your thyroid gland. While it's not the end-all-be-all metric to determine thyroid issues, your TSH looks pretty good. If you were at 3.00miu, I'd suspect underlying thyroid issues on top of low T, but that doesn't seem the case.

What is your protocol currently? I'm thinking every 7-10 days at 100mg, but as we all respond differently, it's hard to guess accurately. Does your doc have you on an AI or HCG? These are important to your overall health. I think bringing that test up and estradiol down will solve the hormone part of this puzzle.

You can try a restart if you want to go try, but given your fragile state, that's a REALLY bad idea. Emotions are amplified by hormones (and lack thereof), and coming down to REALLY low testosterone levels will be a crushing blow to an already trying situation.

You can try speaking to a qualified psychologist to help bring you through this depression, and there is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING wrong with doing so. I have faced similar trying times in my life, and have been at that point where I was reaching out desperately for a life preserver. Thankfully I found one through friends, and even consulted with a professional as suicide was an option I had looked at. I know how grim things can look when your entire life is turned upside down, but I promise that there is a light at the end of that tunnel.

You also have one of the best therapeutic options available to you. The gym. I cannot overstate how much the gym has saved me from making huge mistakes as I take all my frustration/anger/grief/rage/devastating sadness out on that iron. Hell, even cardio can release some tension, and those post workout endorphins help so much to bring spirits up.

Hang in there man, I know how hard and impossible things can seem, but it's TEMPORARY - and you will move forward in time, I promise. Stick around, there are TONS of guys here that have been through trying times, and there's quite the brotherhood here where we all can help out in our own ways. There's an off topic forum even, if you just want to shoot the shit.

Get better and keep fighting. Giving up is for the weak and powerless. We'll be here if you need us.

 

[etharris]

Thanks for taking the time to get that down with the lab results. I know a lot of it looks like gibberish, but we can walk through the important parts.

For starters, the hemoglobin/hematocrit jump out at me. It's good that you donated, but you will want to donate again once you can. This will take some of the pressure off your cardiovascular system.

Your testosterone is clinically at a good range, but the question I have is, do you FEEL (troubles aside) good? I'm talking about the symptoms that got you on TRT in the first place. I personally was at the upper 400's while dialing in my TRT, and I still felt 'off'. It wasn't until I broke 750ng/dL that I started feeling much better. This tells me that your dose may be off a hair.

The next one that jumps out is your estradiol. It's high, and I suspect that your doc doesn't have you on an aromatase inhibitor (arimidex/aromasin/letrozole) to combat this. You have two options here to try to bring it down; introduce an AI (especially if you increase your test dose), or start injecting twice a week at E3.5D intervals (3 days for one, 4 for the other). This will give smaller peaks and troughs, which will drop down that estradiol - which is just as important as the testosterone.

TSH is the hormone sent by your brain to your thyroid gland. While it's not the end-all-be-all metric to determine thyroid issues, your TSH looks pretty good. If you were at 3.00miu, I'd suspect underlying thyroid issues on top of low T, but that doesn't seem the case.

What is your protocol currently? I'm thinking every 7-10 days at 100mg, but as we all respond differently, it's hard to guess accurately. Does your doc have you on an AI or HCG? These are important to your overall health. I think bringing that test up and estradiol down will solve the hormone part of this puzzle.

You can try a restart if you want to go try, but given your fragile state, that's a REALLY bad idea. Emotions are amplified by hormones (and lack thereof), and coming down to REALLY low testosterone levels will be a crushing blow to an already trying situation.

You can try speaking to a qualified psychologist to help bring you through this depression, and there is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING wrong with doing so. I have faced similar trying times in my life, and have been at that point where I was reaching out desperately for a life preserver. Thankfully I found one through friends, and even consulted with a professional as suicide was an option I had looked at. I know how grim things can look when your entire life is turned upside down, but I promise that there is a light at the end of that tunnel.

You also have one of the best therapeutic options available to you. The gym. I cannot overstate how much the gym has saved me from making huge mistakes as I take all my frustration/anger/grief/rage/devastating sadness out on that iron. Hell, even cardio can release some tension, and those post workout endorphins help so much to bring spirits up.

Hang in there man, I know how hard and impossible things can seem, but it's TEMPORARY - and you will move forward in time, I promise. Stick around, there are TONS of guys here that have been through trying times, and there's quite the brotherhood here where we all can help out in our own ways. There's an off topic forum even, if you just want to shoot the shit.

Get better and keep fighting. Giving up is for the weak and powerless. We'll be here if you need us.

Hey Halfwit, thanks for your response...I was doing 200 mgs a week of test...250 ius of hcg 2 x week...but I feel horrible still....I don't have an Al...my doctor really doesn't monitor...and the problem I have is money because I'm unemployed...in a bad situation with employment out look too...I have some obstacles standing in front of me. I don't guess there is a way to do any phone consultation is there? It's a he ck of a lot easier for me to explain this...someone could block their # , I don't care if anyone knows mine if they can help. Got a couple of questions...why would my testicles be aching nonstop, along with lower back...I do want to go ahead and try a power restart...but I'm afraid to self medicate...need someone with experience...the depression I'm in can't be any worse...I went around 7 months to see if my test would come back up before getting on trt...but truly I feel no different....my bones are killing me...I have no energy still, no motivation and still brain foggy. My sk8n aged rapidly from the crash, what is that from..it's like I turned 100 yrs old over a span of 1 yr...no libido and testicles don't hang anymore..is any of this correctable...thank you so much for your help. Who could give me a powervr restart protocol for someone in my situatuon that's been suppressed for so long? I have 30 ius of hcg, 60 50 mgs clomid tabs and 60 20 mgs tamoxifen tabs...have you ever heard of triptorelin?

 

[blakey]

Life is hard
And usally when shit goes wrong everything goes wrong at the same time I lost my job this year got another one ended up grabbing my boss around the neck lost that job on Monday just gone and My relationship with the misses is less than perfect I also have ptsd I get hear we're your coming from and so do alot of guys on here as you can probably tell by the post you have gotten back just hang in there brother you got good guys giving you good advice here everything takes time in a few months time you could of done a blast got some good gains got your old fella in working order and you could be banging a 21 year old you don't know what's waiting around the corner for you hang in there like we say down under she'll be right mate