To answer the questions:
1) It was just a stupid decision in entirety to not use post cycle therapy (pct). I mean I was planning on it and even did the research and had the protocol all figured out, but when it came time to do it I just didnt care soo much and didnt think the consequences would happen to me. That reasoning was stupid and maybe the juiced state of mind had me thinking i was invincible and not prone to any mishaps. I WAS WRONG! Also, my friends who have cycled NEVER do post cycle therapy (pct) and they never complained of hitting rock bottom post cycle and never seemed to worry with post cycle therapy (pct) so I thought "it must not be so bad..ill save the 100+ dollars". I also had the stupid logic of thinking "ehhh Im 23 years old..ill bounce back fast". I never thought It would hit me like this and I would feel so crappy.
2) I did seem to keep a majority of my gains. Here are some pics
Before the cycle:
http://img3.imageshack.us/img3/9504/pic4fo.jpg
about the 3 month mark in cycle:
http://img188.imageshack.us/img188/293/bigxdr.jpg
about the 5 month mark in cycle:
http://img188.imageshack.us/img188/556/7b4947d2b36f.jpg
the 7th and final month mark in cycle:
http://img4.imageshack.us/img4/109/biggertc.jpg
Overall, the experience with AAS was more negative than positive for me. I didnt like the way i looked big and got too bulky. I was bloated like a son of a gun and looked like the marshmello man. I also didnt like the mood swings and mentality of juice. One minute I would feel like a god and the next i would be emotional. I was also over compulsive on juice. Like I said, I ran 750 mg of test cyp throught the cycle and 1000 mg on the last few weeks just to hurry up and run out of juice. During the cycle and the last few weeks especially I couldve cared less about anything in this world...except eating. I didnt even feel like going to the gym the last couple of weeks because I was too contempt and just didnt feel like I needed to even though i definetly did. I mean you could have put me on the street with nothing and I would have had a smile on my face. NOT COOL especially being straight outa college and suposed to be looking for a job. I would act superior to my interviewers and got a job that lasted for about a month because I belittled my boss. I also dont like how the transition is when you come off mentally. I mean you go from thinking the world is yours and so assertive and controlling over everything and everyone to feeling like a slave and submissive to everyone and everything. It will play a major mind game.
I have ordered some clomid and it should be here tommorow. I'm guessin i should run a full post cycle therapy (pct) of 4 weeks with 100ed/50ed/50ed/50ed or do I need to go that extreme? Help me out guys and thanks for the comments and for helping me out as much as you already have.
