No your not coming off like an asshole dude, and ya we all gotta start somewhere and learn somehow, but your are wrong in thinking that the only way to get the physique you want is through steroids. Dude, Ive been at this shit for a long time, I will tell you right now, adding steroids to what you have going on right now isn't gonna do shit, Im willing to bet they wont make you look better, probably worse to be honest. I see young guys at the gym every day who are on gear they walk around like they run the place but they look like complete shit. Why? Because they have no idea how to train, eat, and all they do is rely on the juice, they look like a water balloon. The thing with steroids is they make muscles bigger, if there isn't much muscle there, what do you think is going to happen? Nothing. Steroids are not a magic pill that all of a sudden turn you into a ripped freak. What does that? Is a strict diet, training program and YEARS and YEARS and YEARS of doing this.
You wanna aspire to be a bodybuilder? Good on ya, steroids wont magically get you there, you can believe me or not but you probably should believe me. That is the very last part in the equation to build muscle. If you put them first everything else will fall apart.
One last thing, don't look up to that Bostin Loyd character, hes a fucking moron.