honestly mate, there are a lot of smarter ways to do this.
** online trt clinics (these guys know why everybody is really there, you just need to play the game correctly so the trt companies aren't left in a vulnerable position)
** 95% of these internet sources are bunk gear or made poorly in some shitty ugl so you risk infections and are getting underdosed crap. also committing felonies and ruining your life to get ''big'' is fucking stupid IMO.
nobody on this website is gonna be mr. Olympia man. do whats best for you but be realistic and play this game in the legal field and I think anyone can go far.
IMO if I were you I would get on board with an online TRT with a doc who isnt afraid to have you at a level at 1000+ total test level, this might take a little doc shopping but that's no big deal, stack that with prohormones suck as epistane or super dmz, use insulin for mass, dnp to cut fat.
understanding and practicing proper training and nutrition is your foundation though before any of this.
a lot of these internet forums are setup by people who want to push their own product, who want to push their sponsors product, and who want to make money. they try to come off to you as good guys but in all reality everyone has their own agenda. its like politics, its a game of smoke and mirrors. everyone has their own agenda, or is representing some one else's when it comes to internet forums. and those that do have a good real reliable source, they don't want to tell you about it because guess what? they don't want everyone knowing their source and they don't want to be associated with that source to protect themselves.
IMO your safest best route to getting what you want while playing it safe is, get on TRT with an online clinic that is gonna hook you up with the total test and free test levels that make you an ape, take advantage of whats legal (dnp, insulin, prohormones, peptides), have a solid training and nutrition program as your base, and guess what? you wont turn into a freak of nature, you wont be at a competition level, but you could sit around a nice 230-240lbs at 10% bodyfat.