Yo Tengo Madera? said:
I voted but you wanna know what my biggest concern really is?....my memory.
I have always been known for a tremendous memory. Somehow my mind has taken like a video tape of things. I could read a page and then quote sections of it word for word - people have been amazed by that. At my 10 and 20 high school reunion I discussed things - some people disputed what I said and then someone found photos of said events and my memory was 100%. My family always amazed at how I could remember the most minute details of things. Especially if there was some trigger it was like I was immersed in a living mental video replay of whatever I was trying to remember - in very fine detail.
I returned to school 3 years ago. I am in my 40's. Things were going great until a cycle that involved some homebrew last summer. I could taste this really weird taste with an inject. I did homebrew before but never had this paint taste or something. I was getting by on almost no sleep. I averaged like 3 hours per night for 5 months or so. My memory got terrible. I thought it was the lack of sleep. I could not memorize new things. As well old memories that use to be crystal clear where jumbled.
Here now, a year or so later, its the same. Things I could have pictured in detail are now just partial. I sit and try to memorize things and its to no avail. I think something, maybe excess BA or binders that were in there or something, in that one batch (and last batch ever of home brew) fried my neurons.
Yo man you are so riighhhtttt! I thought it was just me too! I used to be able to remember pages and pages of things from textbooks. For questions on exams I would mentally flip through pages in the textbooks that I studied from and go back to the page where the info was. Nowww it's much harder to do it...I have to put sooooo much more effort to memorize things.
Although my cycle was not a homebrew, it consisted of Test and Deca, I did stay on for 13 weeks. It was my only long-term cycle that I've ever done but I did get severe back acne, major bloat, high bp, high cholesterol, rages, depression, euphoria like feelings, increased sex drive while on, decreased while off, and minor gyno. All of my other cycles were at the most 2-6 weeks and I had no side effects.
Even my g/f noticed how bad my memory got. Where I used to remember details about people and I could back track what happpened almost every single day I find it hard to do so now. Really really weird. I just know that I'm sticking to low doses and short cycles. It does wonders for me anyway. I can't risk losing my memory for the profession I'm headed into leaves no room for mistakes.
Have you done anything to boost your memory? Anything help? Anyone else experience this.
O and for the newbies...besides loss of memory and the above mentioned... tennis elbow... while i used to pitch about 86 mph now I'm hardly throwing faster than 65... but i have muscles....
Also joint pains...
slight hair loss even tho i'm not prone to it.....
depression...
bad acne which i never had as a teenager....
shin splints...
dislocated shoulder due to weakened tendons (very very common be carefffffffful!)from lifting too heavy too fast...increase weight slowlyy..the strength will come ...
always broke from spending money...
how about more prone to dangerous behavior such as fighting and having sex with any woman alive (std's are a risk)...
relationship problems and increased willingness to argue...
anxiety...
joint pain...
increased axillary hair growth...
dandruff...
increased body fat if you don't take care of yourself after and during your cycle....
headaches...
chest pains...
many of these subsided after using but some do last for a while and others are completely permanent. and I use low doses...i'm talking like 300mg of test and 300mg of deca for my strongest cycle.
be safe!